Our last date 1 week ago

We had half a day of spending time together before he goes to work and I pick my mom at the airport. It was fun because I get to do this.....



YES..i shove this ice cream to his face. He did the exact thing to me about two years ago at McD in kuching so this is some sort of revenge two years later...hahah..the two pointy thing was actually his nostril..HAHA!

I want to upload more pic but this blog is not letting me! urgh...maybe next time..

7 days to go..

i woke up today with tears in my eyes because i know he's not here. He's working offshore which means that he can't be contacted at all. I feel a little bit guilty because i keep on complaining how he travels all the time. i'm afraid that i'm making him dislikes his job which i don't intend to because if it was me on the other line, i would be enjoying myself going around the world.

i'm trying to distract myself from missing the bf too much so i'll be joining jamie n dave watching pirates. i hope johnny depth can take my mind off the bf. plus afterwards, i'll be going to bagan lalang to eat seafood n play kites.

another lonely weekend

i just wrote a long heart rendering post on my bf going outstation to brunei tp this phone decided to ignore the post and made me write once again with less melodramatic. well at least that is what i want to believe in or else why would it not be published right?

anywhooss the bf just left and we didn't have the chance to meet up before he left because we were both busy. we talked on the phone for abt 20 mins before he boards. i can't believe i survived not spending time with him 3 weekends in a row!

tomorrow i'm planning on going to jln tar with mira, aniyah n salwa. hopefully i can find superb bargain tomorrow. i'll post the details on the shopping tomorrow in my other blog...oh as well as my shoe for solemnization. it's so purrrtyyyyy...really!

Gay Pride or Weight Loss Programme?

I am having the worst food poisoning ever in my life. It's been going on since monday morning and up until today(tuesday) i'm still having the diarhea (don't give a crap if i spell it wrongly). i vomitted like 8 times and went to the toilet maybe more than 50 times(no kidding!)

i am missing the bf so badly. i miss being able to hang out with him whenever and wherever i want to. i know i might sound ungrateful to some people because most people will say how lucky i am to have such a loyal bf who would shower me with gifts(to be exact luxurious food..hahha) but i really miss the time when things are more simple. i miss the time when we used the UPM bus just to go around the campus so that we can sneakily hold hands under the jacket.


The rain just remind me of us 3 years ago...
IMYSM <-----to my noob bf..tlg teka apa tok

MY BOYFRIEND IS A SUPERSTAR

I honestly feel like i'm dating a superstar. My boyfriend keeps travelling here and there and now that most of my works have been submitted, i am finally feeling the loneliness. Today i have been a bit low coz i miss the bf so much and i feel like buying the ticket to go home. Buttttt the good news issssssssssssss I GET TO MEET BF TOMORROW!!!! sgt suke, happy, gumbiraaaa eventhough it's just going to be for an hour or two tp still i sgt bersyukur coz nya mok juak jumpa. Thank u so much coz sanggup mok jpa mek eventhough syg bok touch down dr spore and have to go to the office and drive all the way to see me before going to kerteh. THANK YOU!!! As u can see i klaka campur2 tok coz i am very ze excited to meet ze bf@fiance@kekasih


I've submitted my draft this morning at 4am via email of course..now what's left is to do all the leceh2 stuff (numbering, TOC n blablabala)

Long overdue post

I haven't been updating the blogs for yonk. I haven't seen my bf in weeks. I haven't wore my heels til yesterday which is the presentation of capstone project. I haven't been doing anything else other than work. I can finally say that I have no entertainment life. The closest entertainment that I can get is by reading PD or kandee's blog or trying to make a french braid to mira's hair which i fail miserably no matter how much i try. It looks more like tambi braid then french braid. How sad is that?

It's funny how I always rant in my blog about work and life but the irony is I am perfectly calm now eventhough i  never face this much of work load in my WHOLE entire life. I do break down once in awhile but it's just a mere second and then i'll bounce back and put my game face on $_$. hahaahah

Alhamdulillah, two project is done and now i'm typing the last part of my thesis and hopefully i can submit it in 4 hours to my supervisor for checking before i hand it to my examiner.


Highlights of my life for the next 2 weeks:
Submit thesis draft (monday)
Presentation (Thursday)
Submit policy indvidual report (byk gilerrrr ok! on next2 monday)
Thesis ammendment after presentation

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FINAL EXAM!

To syg:

I MISS U LIKE KRAZY U KNOW! I can't wait for our next date! Sebulan dah sik dating eventhough we're both in kl. i miss miss miss miss miss u!!! oh one more thing..you were super cute when you bribe me with food in order to see me eventhough jumpa sekejap jak. I really appreciate everything that you've done!

Are you happy now?

It sucks to fight when we're far away. u can just go offline and left me like that. Do u think that's fair? when kmk marah, i just off the window kta chat. i don't go offline terus. It's so true that women are more compasionate than men because no matter how mad we are, we won't leave things just like that.

Yes, u think that i am being ridiculous for being sensitive. that is what skype use for. i can see your reaction, ur face and everything. Unlike on the phone, where u can pretend like u're interested even when you're not and i won't know about it.

I said i was sorry coz i didn't know you didn't mean it but did u have the decency to read what  i wrote? no right?

And here u are leaving me just like that. i guess i'm gonna find a new hobby to take my mind off u whenever u walk out that door whenever we fight. Thank u so much for showing me this part of u. i thought u've changed but some things can never change no matter how long we've been together and i gonna be frank here. I SO FUCKING HATE IT WHEN U LEAVE ME LIKE THIS. THIS IS SO FUCKING UNFAIR.

I WAS FUCKING WORRIED ABOUT U AT THAT ISLAND THE WHOLE FUCKING DAY AND NOW WHEN YOU'RE FUCKING SAFE, YOU JUST FUCKING LEAVE ME WHEN YOU'RE FUCKING ANNOYED THAT I AM FUCKING SENSITIVE. FUCK YOU!

honeymoon~

where is the best place to go for honey moon?

Wedding door gift

i attend a wedding today and the door gift are(more than 1 bebeh)  sooooooo adorable. As promised to the bf, here are the pics..

First door gift

This is what in the box

tadaaaa....gula batu

serious sik nyaman gula batu tok

cute nakkkkkkkkk??????? i want this for my wedding!

tgh mkn gula batu durian

Can't wait to start shopping for the wedding =)

Unexpected trip to singapore

i am SUPER TIRED! Just got back from singapore with ze bf. It was unplanned. Ze bf called this morning and ask me to get ready coz we're going to singapore. I was still in mamai state and i straight away took my shower (it was freezing cold) and got ready. When i was in the car, i was still blur2 coz when ze bf said that he's going outstation tomorrow and his job to thai is going to be 1 day earlier then expected, all i can say is...hmm(in sleepy mode).

The trip was short coz we had to rush back but on the way back. We stumble upon a stranger and he needs a ride. I was giving that "petrified look" to the bf but knowing him, he gave in to the guy. I couldn't stop praying in the car and i wouldn't even rest my back to seat. All the scenes from the thriller movie were running through my head! Ze bf felt uneasy seeing me like that so we sent he to the next station that we can find. I FELT RELIEVED AT THAT MOMENT!

Before u start thinking, how selfish i am and so forth. Let me just tell you guys that this guy was planning to take a lift (all the way) to go to his destination. It was not because of his car broke down or what not.

Now i'm in my room and apparently his job was canceled for tomorrow so we can date again after he works =))

See u on the weekend =(

ze bf is living to Qatar tonight. We were supposed to have lunch together tomorrow! Even when he told me that he's going for only 2 days, i still can't help myself from crying. It's just frustrating that everytime we plan for something, he needs to go somewhere else.

Like 2 weeks ago, we were supposed to go to the beach but in the end you went for the job in Batam. Whenever you say "B, i have a bad news" or "B, i need to tell you something", i feel like someone is kicking in the guts and i know at that point that you're going somewhere. i am still not used to being left over and over again and i don't know whether i'm going to be. That's life i guess..

i'm loving it

i had a weird dream last night. I couldn't remember the details but all i know is i was traumatised by a crazy dude that i ditch before. It is super scary and i thought it was real!

Anyhoosss...i wore a leopard tube today to class(with cardigan of coz..i pakai tudung so of coz lah..) and i was brave enough to endure all the stares that people gave me. FYI i'm an engineering student and what we normally wear is something that you would wear to zzzZZZzzzz so when one person shows up in a leopard tube, you can imagine the scenes in legally blonde movie.

Yesterday i had lunch with ze bf at his office and after that i went to sunway pyramid by myself and it felt GREAT. i have always always always wanted to go shopping on my own and yesterday i did it. It is definitely not going to be the last time because it was fun (as long as u have $$$ to spend). It was the perfect timing for me to unwind my head and put my FYP for a rest.

ze bf just told me that he's not going to be working tomorrow and we're going for a date. Uber excited on wearing my new purchases.

Alhamdulillah, it all ended well. Now i can rest my case and be jolly happy me! i've splurged myself on maysaa hijab today. I've been thinking of buying it since the day of the fashion show and today i finally bought it =)

i'm actually waiting for the zuhur prayer so that i can sleep after that..i am SO TIRED and tonight i have class till 11pm!

toodles everyone

my aim is to move forward

This is just too sad. I tried hard to ignore and keep it inside and just lock it so that no one knows but i can't because it has always been my principle to be honest and truthful. Despite of the risk of losing you everytime i open my mouth but i guess that is the extra baggage you need to take with if you're willing to be with me.

One thing for sure is i have always love u this whole time.

i guess i'm sober now...

i'm scared and i'm not gonna lie. Mix feelings and feeling anxious the whole day. I think this is the right thing to do. i've been hiding for quite some time but now i'm ready to come out from my shell..

The night before the date.....

Lunch with ze bf tomorrow =) can't wait!! i'm actually searching for ideas on what to wear tomorrow and i found several awesome blogs. If you're covered and still want to be fashionable, go and check out this sites. It's gonna be awesome! Trust me =)

MuslimStreetFashion
hijabrevival
modestytheory

Now i am so in love with zara!! No kidding! How i wish it would be less expensive =( Oh btw i am so in love with this indonesian designer Irna la Perle. Seriously the designs are sooooOOOOooooo ME! I wish to wear this on my wedding day!

It's flowy yet very structured. This dress really defines who i am =)

I love the colour and for the fact that it's not body hugging!

What do u think b?

okay2...ada juak i nyelit on wedding stuff. bah2..i'm done for now..

toodles~~