Orang kampung

I just iron my clothes and i feel horrible. U know why? Coz i'm ironing pretty clothes to work. I feel guilty about it. Normally i'll just grab whatever in front of me but apparently my collegue said i look like org kampung. It felt like a slap to my face when she told me that. Suddenly my self esteem is low and i felt embarass. Though we joked about it coz another collegue of mine got the exact same reaction from her bf's family, it still hurts. Yes i laugh and act like i'm not affected by it but deep down inside i do.

I just realized how unattractive i am becoming. Plus gaining weight and being pregnant doesn't help. Most of my clothes don't fit me anymore and that is very frustrating.

I only like to dress up when husband is around even when i'm at home. I even wear perfume before going to sleep. But when he's not home, i just dont bother to dress up. What's the point right??

So now i feel guilty wearing prettty clothes but not going out on a date with husband. I feel like as if i'm telling the world "look at meee..i'm prettyyyy"

I hope Allah will forgive my choice of clothes tomorrow. I'm just embarass that even my own friend sees me like org kampung ;(

Kick...aiyak!

Baby kicks are getting more and more intense. My back pain is starting to be a bit unbearable plus it's getting harder to take a deep breath.

When husband returns insyaAllah i'll hit 7 months mark! Weehoo..

I miss my husband

It's another lonely weekend for me. Husband is working offshore in kemaman. This time around his place doesn't have internet so we couldn't be in touch all the time. All i can do is wait for him to call me using the public phone.

Alhamdulillah. This time around is not so bad. I'm not a cry baby like how i used to be. When i didn't heard any news from him for over 36 hours if i'm not mistaken, i just pray hard and leave everything in god's hand. I was worried sick since i know he was transported using a small boat in the middle of the sea. I tried to keep myself busy to take my mind off being worried.

Now all i do is wait for him to come home in the next two weeks and we'll start to shop baby stuff again ;) Husband said that he's gonna paint the nursery when he comes home. Can't wait!

;(

I haven't heard any news from husband for the past 28 hours. Ya Allah ya tuhanku tabahkanlah hatiku

Acrobatic baby

Baby is moving like an acrobatic in my tummy. The funny thing is it's visible and i feel so geli when i watch it. I wish husband is here right now coz we would totally laugh seeing this together.

Oh my baby is still moving at this moment. I feel so geliiiiiiiiiiiii

If only my energy level is like before i was pregnant, then i wouldn't need the help from someone else.

It gives me too much heartache

Moody

I totally understand why mommies are always annoyed and moody and very very sensitive/explosive.

I'll be in that state whenever i feel that my house is not tidy. I can live like a normal happy person when i dont care about the messiness but the minute i realize that i need to do this and that, i will be soooooOooOoo moody! Argh!!

We're out to buy some stuff from tesco and i'm surveying for some baby essential at giant/tesco so hopefully i'll find some bargains.

Anywho...i hate it when i'm moody. Mun aku jenis ceridak kan bagus..x lalek mk ngemas2 tok. Haih