I did not sleep well last night because mommy snored so loud and so does ika which is only 4 btw. Plus the baby at the house keeps crying every few hours.
Today we're going to do some serious shopping which i will talk about it in my other blog. Can't wait to see what's in store.
I miss bf very much. He's going offshore today in terengganu. He said it's going to be for 2 days but we both know it can go on for weeks. Let's just assume that we're not gonna meet til the end of the month.
I think I should write on how to be the traveller's wife: how to survive an off and on long distance relationship.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Monday, May 30, 2011
The truce..
Everything is better now. We talked about our problems during the anniversary dinner, although nothing is solved but at least i feel much better after everything is out in the open.
Daddy was surprised to hear that the bf is not going to be able to pick mommy up tomorrow at the airport. I guess i'll be driving alone.
Daddy was surprised to hear that the bf is not going to be able to pick mommy up tomorrow at the airport. I guess i'll be driving alone.
4th Anniversary
I need to release this now before I cry in front of the public.
I don't know how to go on with this. It is so hard to find a time to be together and when we finally found one, the next thing you said is you'll be leaving again the next day.
As a normal human being, i broke down and cry. I felt like my nightmare is starting all over again. It's really cruel to give me false hope on having extra time together when you came back one day earlier.
I know it's not your fault and you're trying your best to give me all the time you have left. So do I. I tried so hard to put a happy face and not be moody but sometime I fail. It's so frustrating when we fight every time we meet up.
It made me feel 1000x worst than before because now I see myself as the person who doesn't bring out the best of you. I'm the person who always say the wrong thing at the wrong time and will make you pissed.
We're going to celebrate 4 years of anniversary tonight but none of us made the effort of trying to make it special. At this point, I just want to be on my bed and just sleep so that I can stop feeling terrible and dream of beautiful things. Call me selfish but I deserve to be selfish at least this once.
I don't know how to go on with this. It is so hard to find a time to be together and when we finally found one, the next thing you said is you'll be leaving again the next day.
As a normal human being, i broke down and cry. I felt like my nightmare is starting all over again. It's really cruel to give me false hope on having extra time together when you came back one day earlier.
I know it's not your fault and you're trying your best to give me all the time you have left. So do I. I tried so hard to put a happy face and not be moody but sometime I fail. It's so frustrating when we fight every time we meet up.
It made me feel 1000x worst than before because now I see myself as the person who doesn't bring out the best of you. I'm the person who always say the wrong thing at the wrong time and will make you pissed.
We're going to celebrate 4 years of anniversary tonight but none of us made the effort of trying to make it special. At this point, I just want to be on my bed and just sleep so that I can stop feeling terrible and dream of beautiful things. Call me selfish but I deserve to be selfish at least this once.
Sunday, May 29, 2011
My heart is broken
This rollercoaster ride is taking its toll on me. Now i'm questioning myself whether I have the strength to be in this ride. I am starting to have doubts and I hate the feeling of getting left behind.
I think I should focus on getting a job and start devoting myself on that instead of this feeling
I think I should focus on getting a job and start devoting myself on that instead of this feeling
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Malaysian Food Delicacy
Morib Beach
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| Enjoying every bit of sotong bakar |
Bagan Lalang
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| Camwhoring before maghrib prayer =) |
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| In sarawak we call it ambal. Over here its pepahat but i always call it pelempang! |
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| Sotong goreng tepung |
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| The remarkable super tasty ikan bakar |
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| 10 minutes later... |
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| Look at the gravy..it's heaven~ |
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| This is suppose to be udang bakar but I did not take the photo before..haha |
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| Interview at CPC |
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| I look like parts of the mascot |
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| The twins |
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| That's not my real thigh! I was wearing harem dress ok... |
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| Prairie Dog!! Super cute |
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| Leopard cat. I want this for my pet! |
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| Camwhoring while waiting for isyak |
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| Kerabu sotong =) |
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| The best tomyam ever! NO ONE can beat this tomyam..seriously |
As you can see, I have been doing a lot of eating lately! Let us hope that the bf still recognize me this afternoon.
Oo right now I'm having domino's pizza...I am going to miss the food here when i go back =((
Thursday, May 26, 2011
I don't need a friend who are full excuses
I just got into a huge fight with a friend. I was the one who started. It was after reading her text to one of my friends. Her msg was very rude and I was totally offended by it.
Then she started giving me what feels like a neverending text and in it was blaming everything towards other people. And the text afterwards were repetitions of her previous never ending text.
It comes to a point where i just laughed about it because whatever things that i predicted is going to be in the text was on the text. Clue? repetitions. So i stop replying because i just don't want my inbox to be full of repetitions.
I hate it when people just can't speak straight to the point and she thinks that she needs to explain every single thing. Little that she knows that "her explanation" is just HURTFUL.
Things that I wish she would understand:
Niat kawan ak nok sorg ya bait tp ko x pk? ko mok org jak pk psl kau. Ko complain psl aku compare relationship ak dgn kau maka aku padah in a very short sentence tp part ko compare bf ko dgn sepul nok panjang gila elaboration ya ko sik pk? ya mcm meludah di muka dikpun jak. U HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHATS GOING IN MY PERSONAL LIFE SO YOU BETTER SHUT YOUR PIE HOLE! Pasya why on earth would you talk shit about my friend with me. Ko pk aku akan support kau ka? That is one hell of a mistake! I have no respect left in you. If ko sik puas ati, tell it to her face not mine. Your elaboration bores me.
As you can see, i am very much pissed off with you and pls save your excuses@explanation to your beloved bf because i have no interest in listening to your REPETITIONS.
Then she started giving me what feels like a neverending text and in it was blaming everything towards other people. And the text afterwards were repetitions of her previous never ending text.
It comes to a point where i just laughed about it because whatever things that i predicted is going to be in the text was on the text. Clue? repetitions. So i stop replying because i just don't want my inbox to be full of repetitions.
I hate it when people just can't speak straight to the point and she thinks that she needs to explain every single thing. Little that she knows that "her explanation" is just HURTFUL.
Things that I wish she would understand:
Niat kawan ak nok sorg ya bait tp ko x pk? ko mok org jak pk psl kau. Ko complain psl aku compare relationship ak dgn kau maka aku padah in a very short sentence tp part ko compare bf ko dgn sepul nok panjang gila elaboration ya ko sik pk? ya mcm meludah di muka dikpun jak. U HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHATS GOING IN MY PERSONAL LIFE SO YOU BETTER SHUT YOUR PIE HOLE! Pasya why on earth would you talk shit about my friend with me. Ko pk aku akan support kau ka? That is one hell of a mistake! I have no respect left in you. If ko sik puas ati, tell it to her face not mine. Your elaboration bores me.
As you can see, i am very much pissed off with you and pls save your excuses@explanation to your beloved bf because i have no interest in listening to your REPETITIONS.
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
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