Mr X called to the office and suddenly i can feel my nerve system go HAYWIRE. The last time he called was to complain how bad my training has been so far. "you seemed so relax and up until now i don't see anything coming from u". At that exact moment, i feel like i'm in a time capsule because i just can't seem to find a time when i'm acting like that! serious rasa SIAL. rupa2nya someone had came up with a rumour and complain it to him. tp sik pa..coz now she's paying for what she did. due to her BIG MOUTH, everyone hates her..karma's a bitch =) anyway, mr. x was actually asking about something else and it ended up ok until i open my big mouth and talked about what happened before(ms aku terbebek when he gave that statement). it was hell a good feeling because i defended myself and tell him what i have been doing so far.

There's a hugeeeee office drama going on and i am apart of it but the table has turned and i am not the victim..teehee=) nevertheless, office drama sucks.

Tomorrow i'm going out with some friends for lunch at buntal =)


to abg daud and maybe abg suhairi(x sure ad fb tak..hehe):
if you're reading this..thanx for the lunch=)  sedap giler ikan tuuuuu

the countdown begins =D

my body temperature keep rising. bila la mok jadi completely healthy tok...

today, i did one of the impossible things which is trying to find the element of the cube test result. blur?? ok let me explain. When we order concrete, you will get these details;

• DO number
• casting date
• number of cubes sample(for test cube) which include the reference number
• batching list
• element to be casted(eg: column, slab or beams)
• etc..

These whole thing will be attached with the request inspection form(RFI) butttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt all i have is the cube test result and i need to find the ELEMENT! the only info i have is the casting date. NANG RASA MOK GILA AKU CARIK TAUK SIKKKKKKKKK.

This is how my table looks like!

 

Terus jadi gila afterwards~

ooo syg nei ktk tok..

mummy is gonna be super mad when she finds out that i haven't send my clothes to the tailor..bila la ak ad masa tok oo..

i am amazed with the fb photo uploader...what the very jakun i am....

i'm walking to the opposite direction

i don't know how to make u understand how much i don't want to be with you. enough said

helpless

sometimes i lose faith in us. i feel like what if we can't make it through.

happy father's day =)

i receive my first official paycheck today! the first thing i bought was ice cream vanilla and fish burger at sugar bun. well, at first i din realize that i was using THAT money but in the middle of eating the ice cream..it smack on my head..hihi..let me tell u..it feels GOOD! Tonight i'm gonna bring my family out for dinner but i still have no idea where..hmm..thinking of having a steamboat for tonight.

i'm tired but blissful at the same time =)

masyaAllah...

i dont want to be around u

i did smth crazy just now and now i feel like puking whenever i think of what i did quite some time ago. what the hell was i thinking?! what the fuck is wrong with me! i am super fucking disgusted with myself.

Things has changed as we grow older...some things will never be the same again.

FUCK U BITCH!

Today is full of drama...

work- fuck this bitch!
friendship-complicated
bf-being protective

me- DEAD

life is full of drama

i just wish that PEOPLE can just treat me like a normal person. yes i am well aware that i am just a trainee but that doesn't give a reason why you shouldn't respect me! fuck u lar...u were once just like me, tuyuk2 sik tauk pa2. The reason why you get to where u are right now is by learning and that is exactly what i want to do. FUCK U!

i can sense a new drama coming. i can't wait to finish my practical and get back to my bf.

i love my bf!

it's a beautiful life...ooooOOOooo

i'm looking for a nice empire maxi dress...hmm...sik sabar blt kl and shopping~~
my friend cheryl is GILA...ahahah

love ya til tit bits...oh yea...durian pringles

To all the ladies...

It's so embarrassing to see people on and off wearing their hijab. When you decide on wearing a hijab, it is a commitment to god. It's such an eyesore when you see an album of that person wearing hijab but when u click to the next album, it's the pic from clubs wearing clubbing clothes, of course.

If you want to wear it, then wear it properly.

A friend will respect and support another friend no matter what

There's so many things i'd like to say here but i can't.

i've moved on and i have a life now so i guess you should do the same thing.

don't mess with me or i'll leave u...sial palat

I'm so fucking tired and mad.

1. work til 9.30pm! went to the site for 2 hours in the morning and 4 hours in the afternoon.
2. Did the RFI for the RE til 9.30pm!
3. genset problem AGAIN!! There were no electricity around 7.30pm and it was so fucking dark.
4. kept thinking of me being rape there because i'm the ONLY girl at the site and site office and ANYTHING can happen. but the work is so urgent and i need to submit it tomorrow morning.
5. ada org palat tadik. mcm sial aku rasa and this is the 2nd time nya palat. One more time and i'm gone. MARK MY WORD.
6. The bf ngatik (disturb just sik ngenak jak) at the WRONG time so now i'm so fucking pissed although i know it's just my tiredness talking.

off to take shower and pray

before the worst

i can say i'm proud of myself today. i'm handling it well =D

There were no electricity today because our genset broke down. Nasib lah the day was quite cloudy and once in a while, it rain for a bit so i don't really feel the heat outside. I managed to go to the site twice today=)) In the morning, misrul and i went to the basement to check the plastering work and in the afternoon i went to see the concreting for STP(sik sure but i think it stands for septic tank plant....sukati polah dikpun jak..hehe) and also the preparation for concreting slab at level 8.


ok now i rindu dgn my bf....gonna skype-ing again with him tonight =D

i love u syg!

just STOP

The more we talk, the more it hurts.
The higher the stake, the higher the temptation.

This is all syaitan's work and honestly it's working. i feel mad and sad all at the same time. No one understands, no one can help me. I need to find my own way and breakfree.

If i can wish for one thing, just for tonight. i wish i can be in palestine and do something that worth way more than worrying on my petty problem.

JUST FUCK OFF AND STOP CALLING OR TEXTING

This is stupid. Thinking about the person that i least want to think about. i'm not ready. don't u get it? what happen if the thing happened last time happen again? don't you ever think about that? i need to prepare myself. i need to stay firm on the ground so just give me time to think and let me do it at my pace. stop pushing me.

i waited for 3 fucking hours and this is what i get. BABI MENA

4 more weeks to go!

My new goal is to walk up the scaffolding ladder up to level 8 at least twice a day. i sooOOoo need to burn my fat aka love before my wedding day.

i started my day with going to site and see the progress of work that has been done. I'm kinda lost at the moment because last week i didn't go to the site at all because i'm having the holiday mood but now i have to step it up because my visiting lecturer is coming soon so i need to be on top of my game. cewah...poyo jak lebih (mind my language semenanjung+sarawak). At least la tauk what's going on. Then after asar, i went to the site again and this time i get to see the retention at one of the prestressing beam at level 8. There was some technical difficulties so they have to release the strand. i'm not gonna tell u much about it because it's going to be in my report =) if mok tauk..baca report klak aa..

Now i'm just waiting for my hubby to come back from work so that we can skype-ing. i miss u so so much syg. Going to work today was hard but i managed to make it through...alhamdulillah...

b i love u!!!

argh it's monday!

it's 12.33am and i'm about to go to bed. just prayyyy that i'll wake up laterr...

When will this stop??

Arguement after arguement...when will this stop...blergh!!

i love u syg

my bf is like adam in ADAMAYA. if u haven't watch it...go check it out. =D

another reminder to me and u

 Don't take these things for granted...

Perkara membatalkan solat part 1
Perkara membatalkan solat part 2
Perkara membatalkan solat part 3
Perkara membatalkan solat part 4

everything is going to be okay

Alhamdulillah...everything is fine now. The wedding is soooOOOoooo ON~~~ but first thing first, i need to fix myself and strengthen my iman. insyaAllah

i love u dear...

i hate myself for being a bitch!

how am i supposed to go to work when i'm feeling like crap? i have a dark circle/eye bag due to lack of sleep and crying all the time. if i wear concealer n make up, it's gonna take a while for me to wash it off when i want to pray but if i don't, i look like MAK JANDA.

Today, i'm gonna clear smth off once and for all. This is definitely going to affect my career but it is the right thing to do.


i keep on waking up in the middle of the night and think of you.

today will be a better day

If i were to remember Allah, this would not have happened. I'm too lost in myself and i forget what is more important. So before you start doing something and make decisions. Remember Allah or you might listen to the syaitan's whisper.

i'm dead

i feel like driving super fast and run into anything and be in a coma.