Sunday, September 30, 2012

Maysaa clearance sale

I spend like crazyyy this two days. I'm the kind of person who is very hard to please especially with shopping BUT when I find bargains, I will make sure I get my butt there and buy it straight away.

First was the cotton on cardigan. I bought TWO for rm30!! And they have further discount 30% so i ended up paying rm21 only!! At that time i was contemplated to buy 2 long sleeve for only rm42 after the discount! Buttt i didn't. I keep on thinking for dayssss about the long sleeve shirt so i finally bought it yesterday at the curve but sadly the discount has ended so i have to pay for the promotional price only which is rm60 for 2 long sleeve ;(

Then came MAYSAA

Everyone of my friend would know how much I love wearing the Maysaa snood scarf coz i wear it ALL THE TIME. so this weekend they made a clearance sale! I didn't get to go yesterday since mummy is here so I went there today with syg after my weekly check up. I was praying hardddd that I won't deliver today coz this is my last chance to grab the cheap scarvesss. I'll post the pic of my haulsss and rrust me I'm really broke now.


But it was worth it!

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Bodoh sombong

Kau tok eh. Ndak alah2 nak pass keja ngan org. Benda yg ko blh plh kedirik, pakei lah otak oooo. Org lain eh byk gk keja nak dplh. Ko nganok org pass keja tp ko kedirik sm jak lah. Ak honestly x tauk gne ko leh dpt degree. Ka otak ko still rah U nektok, x diembak blt? Ak nang stress mun plh keja ngan kau. Suka berlagak pandei tp x pandei

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Result of graduate mala kenak spoon fed

Bencik na juak ompuan tok eh. Dhlah lembab. Semua mok org ajar sigek2. Sikpat ka pakei otak pk dikpun. Maka ada degree x kan excel x pandei pakei nak? Polah graph besa jak pun.

Dah ak mok tlg ko polah keja, kau gik malas nak berik info mena2 ngan aku pasya buang masa aku jak dr pagi polah keja tok. Cam sial jak aku rasa. Klaka cam tambi berbelit2. Camya lah graduate mun mala spoon feed dr skolah. Otak ad tapi sik pakei. Membazir jak.

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Strength is all i need

Ya Allah

Pls give me strength to do all the house works. I need to get it all done before the baby arrive. I wouldn't have time to do all this when she comes. I'm going crazy soon. I'm almost 38 weeks but i still have to do all this. Maybe I do need a maid afterall ;(

I really can't depend on anyone elae except myself ;( this is really depressing.

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Cherating

Husband just went to work and now i'm enjoying the breakfast on my own. Once in a while, i do enjoy this kind of treatment. Got out from the buzzling city of KL and just having some quiet time elsewhere.

I'm praying hard that I get another two day off from the doc coz I know I'll be soo tired when I go back to KL tonight.
I am going to enjoy every last moment in cherating since i know that this is the last time i can enjoy a quiet piece of mind.

Guess where I'm at?!

Cherating bebehhhhhh

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

I wish my husband is P.Ramlee

I just cleaned the kitchen and toilet. After this i'll be doing the laundry. My back hurts like hell now. Husband doesn't dare to come near me as he knows i am so damn pissed about him working outstation tomorrow.

Deep in my heart, i'm feeling a bit frustrated coz he doesn't seem to be bothered on me doing all the hard works. Which made me wonder, does he really care about me? I mean..i could have fall while cleaning the toilet or i might cut myself while washing the dishes. I keep on reminding myself, he is a guy and you can't expect much from a guy.

The thing that annoys me is when i want to do things on my own pace, and then he'll come over to rush me. Though i know, he meant to help but when i told him to stop helping me..he'll be mad. But whenever i ask help from him, his face, reaction, gestures are so forced like. That is why i prefer to do everything on my own.

He's not bothered at all about having heaps of dish in the sink. He doesn't bothered about the toilet is dirty since he just cleaned it last week. I mean c'mon..do u want to clean it once a month? For me, i can't. I'd like to keep my kitchen as clean as possible coz i hate ants, cockcroach and mice! So to avoid them, i keep my kitchen as clean as possible. I hate dirty toilet becoz the floor is slippery and i can fall if i'm not careful plus i hate sitting on the moulded bowl!

Therefore, i have no choice but to make sure that its clean.

I feel so annoyed! Period!

37 weeks

Why did I put myself in this position in the first place. I have no one else to blame but myself. I don't have the patience like my cousins whose husband are always away. One of them work as a navy and another one is based elsewhere. It's painful to be left all the time and be notified a day or hours before he left.

It sucks to be in this place. No matter where you work, the job scope is still the same. I feel like i've been alone most of the time during this pregnancy and it was a rare opportunity that I get to spend the whole weekend with him. I felt so loved and I love having him around but now he's leaving again and today i'm already 37 weeks.

He kept on telling me that the last job is gonna be his last job and he's aint going anywhere but again and again, he breaks his promise.

I honestly don't know what to believe in anymore. I feel so ashamed on begging to my friends to accompany me at home. This time, i won't beg for anyone. If I were to deliver this baby on my own, so be it. I have a feeling that I will be raising my kids on my own, most of the time. Just like all his collegue's wife.

I have to be strong, mentally and physically. If there is one person i should blame on is myself.

Friday, September 14, 2012

Pregnancy Update

I'm almost at the end of 36 weeks of pregnancy and next tuesday I'll be celebrating 37 weeks! It means that my baby is already full term and if I were to deliver the baby, she won't be considered as premie. Weee ;)))))

Now i'm feeling the normal back pain, the needs to pee all the time. But the worst part is my pelvic pain. I am a bit unlucky to experience this pain since not every woman experinces this ;( oh well, life goes on...

I am soooo looking forward to see my daughter! Everything is almost ready. We'll be doing the last cycle of laundry, buy hangers for her clothes. We'll be going to sogo either today or tomorrow coz I heard a big sale of sweet cherry things. Perfecto! I'm hoping to score some bargains on baby carrier and stroller! InsyaAllah...

Husband is here next to me! He looks adorable when he sleeps. It melts my heart but ONLY when he doesnt snore! Hahahha. I love him so much and I feel so greatful to have him as my husband. All these time when he's at home, he has been such a sweetheart. Massaging me when I'm in pain, hugging me when i cry for not knowing how to ease the pain, constantly showerin me with kisses when i get ready to go work or just whenever i'm around him. I pray that everyone of you get the same treatment like i do from your partner because it is soooo wonderful to feel truly in love by someone who really loves you.

Enough of my giwangness...
Happy saturday!

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Where is the love?

I miss doing charity works. I feel like I've been too busy with my so called "life" til I forgot about the less fortunate people.

What can I do for the orphans?
What should I do for the OKU?
How can I help the homeless people?

Although their reputation has been tainted by the media but they are really needy people out there who needs our help, love and support. It saddens me that there are less people who cares and couldn't be bothered on ways to help these people and that includes me ;(

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Another loser I call my friend

It 9.49am and it's too early for me to be mad but I couldn't help myself frm being angry. I ain't two face bitch so if i'm mad at you, I cannot hide my face be nice to you.

Honestly, I cant look at your face what else to say talking to you.

Let me calm myself after knowing a new fact about you and MAYBE things will be okay.

I can never be sincere to you at least for this few days.

Syg blt cepatttt so that i can cry on your shoulder ;(

Nursing clothes

Why do they sell nursing clothes mahal gila??? Most prolly i'll be wearing tube tops, halter top and cardigan during nursing.

Monday, September 10, 2012

Bestnya nangga org lain sentiasa ada suami di sisi cdak. Jelous rs ati. Walaupun diam d apartment kecik tok pun terasa dh mun diam sorg. Nektok dh nak pkl 8pm tapi si dia blm gk blt m esok pagi2 nya dh chow ke terengganu. Honestly x tauk lah apa dipk nya mok glak g awal. Kononnya dpt plh ati tok nyaman. Tp lepas tauk nya pg mkn awal, hati tok makin membara. Puas dh semua perkataan x bgs disebut, type and dlm ati. X tauk lah mk jadi ibu mithali gne tok.

Mcm2 terlintas dlm palak tdk. Tek nang panas juak lah rs ati when kwn ku madah ' u should have expected this from him'. Rs ku nak hentak palak nya rah lantei jak wpun nya best friend ak kedirik. Cuba mun ktk org rah tempat aku, gne ktk org rs. Mun stakat nyebut ya nang nyaman, tp ak yg rs. Ak yg pregnant. Ak yg mala ditinggal laki. Aku yg rs skt ada anak dlm perut tok.

Gne ak nak pk positif. X pat eh. Dh laki ak nang suka keja tok. Mun nya nak mukak bisness, siang malam palak nya ke lain. Lamak2 klak ak tok jadi wallpaper jak. Nektok pun apa diklaka aku mala jak nya polah bodo mun nya dlm dunia nya mpun. Terasa gila aku doe.

For the first time ak rs ak xxxxxx. Slamak dkat nak setaun ak nikah, x pernah ak rs gia tp tok lah kali pertama. Nang nguji kesabaran aku juak kali tok.
Tell me how much more I need to take? People keep on telling me to have some patience. Do they even know what's the meaning of patience. Tomorrow I'm gonna be 36 weeks into the pregnancy meaning that, I am 9 months pregnant. By the end of the week, I am considered as full term but the sad part is I am still living as a single.

I am so sad, angry and disappointed the whole day and it took me three times longer to do the programme. I keep on making stupid mistakes over and over again. I can't focus.

Husband is leaving tomorrow and he told me that he'll be back on thursday. I know one thing for sure that he will always leaves on time but barely comes back on the day he is supposed to.

I feel so depress living like this. What's the difference if I were to deliver in kuching?

Tomorrow, I'll be going to do my check up alone after work. I'm not gonna wait for husband to be around because my baby's health is more important now. It's a struggle for me to move around due to the pelvic pain. Even lifting a leg is excruciating for me. I feel like screaming on top of my lungs. I feel so alone and I am so scared. Thinking back about that night when I was in pain scares me. I don't want to go through that again.

Why am I in this situation? I dont have any option but to go on and try to live. I feel like giving. I'm so down right now i feel like killing myself.

Saturday, September 8, 2012

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Window shopping

I went to sunway pyramid after work with mila coz i'm dying for a window shopping. I have been looking for handbags online for days now and i just can't wait to lay my hands on the real thing.

In the end i bought a bought a bag from Aldo ;))))))))))
The funny thing was, i wanted to buy coach at first but in the end, i didn't coz i don't like it the real world but i might gonna get the wristlet. It was gorgous!

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Husband called this morning for 10 mins! I was happy to hear his voice early in the morning but he seems too eager to speak and i felt like as if he's ignoring what I have to say. At the end of the conversation, i felt mad because I needed him last night but he's not here and when I want to tell him what happen last night, he keeps on asking abt smth else instead of listening. Like as if his brain is still stuck in his own conversation. I am so pissed off right now.

He'll be calling me again later to update abt his current job status. This is his last job. No way i'm gonna say yes for the next job. What the hell was i thinking last time. Money is not as important as him being here with me. Besides, we got it all covered now and we still have leftovers for the arriving of the baby. So no more offshore til next yr!

Friend+Malay= hard to find

I HATE BEGGING. Mmg xda genuine friend gk ka in this world? Do we have to beg like crazy for favours?

Another thing is I hate it how pessimistic malay can be some time. It's annoying.

Skt perut

It's 2.50am I was awake by a sharp pain i felt on my tummy on the lest side. It was so painful. I change sides pun still skt. Then I try peeing and now i'm just sitting on the bed coz I don't know what to do. I'm scarred. I honestly thought of driving myself to te hospital but I thought, if the pain still persist til morning i would go there. But thats like another 5 hours!

I honestly thought just now, is this THAT moment? what am i gonna do? I need my husband right now. Ya Allah ya tuhanku...;(

I miss u husband ;(

I miss husband soooo much til it made me played the guitar. U have no idea how rare it is for me to hold the guitar. Plus having a big tummy make it a bit hard to hold it still.

Ya Allah ya tuhanku,
Tabahkanlah hati kami
Berikanlah perlindungan kepada kami
Rahmatilah hubungan kami
Berikan ketenangan dlm hati kami dlm dugaan ini

Ya Allah
I miss my husband so much and I pray for his safety. I hope he is doing fine over there and I pray that he'll be home soon. I am honestly worried because today, I am 35 weeks pregnant and I'm all alone at home. If anything were to happen to me, i have no idea how it will end. I pray for the safety of my baby and I. I pray that when the time comes for the delivery, husband will be there by my side. Ya Allah, I miss my husband so much. Being away from him is so hard because I love being around him. I know I married the right guy. I can never get enough of him. Every weekend or hols with him is precious to me. We laugh at silly jokes. Staring at each others eyes. Kissing randomly at home or even when we go out. Holding hands, sharing/stealing food. Oh how i miss all that. Throughout my pregnancy, he has been so sweet to me. He tried his best to help and comfort my sensitive preggy mode.

I feel like crying now. I miss him! The last time I heard frm him was at 9am and that phone call was less than 5 mins. Now it's 12am and still no news frm him. I guess the next call will be at tomorrow morning.

This is so hard on me and I honestly dont know how much longer i can keep up with this lifestyle. I keep on asking myself, why did i end up falling in love with a guy who works in oil and gas industry. Why?!

I want my husband to be here ;(
No one is in my department at the moment. Boss is out having tender interview, lay is having meeting at the site, mila and wani is going to mandarin oriental for site visit. Therefore, i'm the only one at the office. Boring nya rs...ngantokkk

Handbag story

I've been searching for coach bags for the past two nights. Afterling hours of researh, i will prob buy other brand like fossil n etc. Simply because I dont want to use my hard earn cash on bags that might not be authentic. The prices in the boutiques are just wayy too expensive than in US. So sadly to say that i guess i'll just survey the bags, the old fashion way ;)

Monday, September 3, 2012

Petronas sucks!

Ya Allah

Sedih nya rs ati nektok. Husband just called and he said that he has just arrived at the platform!!! And now is 11.50!!! I was shocked! He was supposed to leave tomorrow coz his job was supposed to finish today.

He also told me just now that he might have to stay there longer coz there are other platform that is still under shutdown so they can work there. I am sooo mad because based on the schedule, it says the job is only for two days!! Omg i feel like applying job to petronas so that i can take over the planner coz obviously he suck! At least i would do a great job by actually giving an effort to understand the job scope!

Husband can only talk for 10 mins since there are many ppl in line waiting for the public phone as well. I asked him to get some info from whoever joker in charge over there and update me again tonight.

As for the cherry on top, husband said that there might be a possibility where there is no means if communication at the other platform. Damn it!!! I just want this nightmare to end

I want to end this friendship!

I am done with friends who take advantage of me. If you're one of the list below, consider yourself as not in my contact list anymore.

1. Friends with benefit
When you need some favour, the first person you'll dial is me coz u know i won't say NO.

2. I'm-with-my-bf-so-pls-go-away
I don't know whether i'm cursed or what but i'm always friends with this type of ppl. Surprisingly one of my bestest friend has become like this and honestly i don't know what to say. Before this ppl say 'u dont know how it feels coz u aint got any bf duhhh' but now i have a HUSBAND and i cant still spend time with my friendssssss duhhhhh.

If ur one of the above, pls f@&£ off coz i don't need u in my life!

BYE!

Sunday, September 2, 2012

Assembling Avent Breastpump

What have been up to tonight?

I learn on the operations of the breastpump and let me tell you, it was complicated at first but as soon as i got the hang of it...my milk starting to leak. I guess the fun of assembling thr pump trigger my hormon to produce milk!

I gave it a try using the electric pump but nothing came out and when i read the pamplet that came with the box, it says that it's normal not to get any milk from the first few pumps. The i tried using the manual and this time, it was painful!!! And i saw some milk being pump so most probably i didn't assemble the pump tightly when i operate it using electric. My nipple is quite sore now. If you wanna know how it feels, try pinching your nipple. That is exactly how it feels like!

I'm glad that i'm doing it now rather than later coz at least i won't have to stress myself learning on how to use the pump. So here are the mess that I have made!

Some day..

Husband just called and suddenly i just broke down. I couldn't hold my tears although i've promised him not to cry this time. I just can't bare not being able to contact him while his in the boat. It worries me! I'll be paranoid about the weather and a lot of other stuff. I'll have to keep reminding myself that he'll be back soon. A few more days and i'll be sleeping next to him again. I love it when he hugs me tightly when he sleeps. Okay enough being melodramatic..husband wants me to occupy myself and not be depressed while his gone so i will do my best to distract myself.

Things to do:
Prepare dinner
Put the folded clothes in the wardrobe
Iron tomorrow's work attire
Solat
Learn how to use the pump
Try to sleep early!

Well i wanted to blog about my wish list in the first place so this is what i want!

A new handbag and shades!! I might just drop by at fossils and see what they have. At least it's under my budget ;)

Saturday, September 1, 2012

Gift from grandMAMA

Hello..hello

It's been a while since I last blog using my laptop and this time I have too since I have heapss of pics to upload! MIL just came back from UK and she bought A LOT OF STUFFS!!! If you don't believe me, then take a look at the pics below ;)

LOOK AT WHAT GRANDMAMA BOUGHT!!! I was speechless when I see all this!
Let us take a look at what's inside the boxes!I would like to start with the feeding bottles. Guess how many she bought!

Not 1....
 


Not 2!!!!

12 Tommee Tippee 260ml/9fl oz of feeding bottles!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Avent Single Electric Breastpump =))))))

This is what's inside the box!
The best part about this pump isssss it can be used with batteries or I can even convert it to a manual pump! How awesome is that! The pump came with 1 newborn teat travel pack, 1 sealing disc (for milk storage), 1 disposable breast pads starter pack and 1 spare valve.


Granmama bought another 3 feeding bottles of 125 ml/ 4oz!!!
That is a grand total of 15 feeding bottles!!!!!!! I am soooo going to be a milk factory soon. InsyaAllah ;)


Bottle brush =)

The big brush is of course for cleaning the bottle and the pink tip is for cleaning the teat! AWESOME!!!

 
If you think the feeding bottles is A LOT, you have to see the clothes that grandmama bought!


Clothes to wear during the day =)))

3-6 months

6-9 months

9-12 months


This is for her night wear =)
0-3 months

3-6 months

6-9 months

9-12 months
THAT IS A GRAND TOTAL OF 27 PCS OF CLOTHES!!! OMG!!! Mummy is soooo greatful!!! To top it of, grandmama bought this cuteeee cinderella shoe for baby to wear when she goes out shopping with mummy klak! Alhamdulillah...syukur ya Allah.




Alhamdulillah...I have completed buying all the stuff in my baby list and now all I have to do is just wait for the day =) This is the last few weeks before the baby pops out, insyaAllah. Therefore, I have to start doing the laundy, assemble the baby cot and just put everything in place. Plus, preparing my hospital bag =) InsyaAllah everything will be done on time =)


Dear husband,
I hope you're happy with this post and I can't wait for you to come back home. See you on wednesday, InsyaAllah ;) I MISS YOU!!!