Monday, March 29, 2010

hatred is never the answer

sometimes i like to be alone just to unwind the things i have in mind and i would really appreciate it if i'm given that space to be on my own.

syg if you're reading this...i miss you so friggin' much. pls pls pls drive safely when you get back. see you on the weekend =)

life = project + test 2 + assignment = challenges =)

Thursday, March 25, 2010

i'm choked

No one is listening. Nobody understands. i am all alone and i need guidance. i hate what i'm feeling right now. Tears keep rolling down my cheek and depression just renders in.You judge and you decide, if i say no guilt will rush in and i have no choice but to agree.

make this feeling stop!

I can't pretend that i'm happy when i'm not.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Irony is what i like to call it

i came across someone's blog and he is being so bloody racist! we do have a lot of differences but why o why must you give statements like that? You might have a pea size of brain for not thinking that someone like me who is the race that you disgrace, might read your blog. i am nothing like what you think and yet you don't acknowledge someone like me in my race!

so typical..

this is what we call ONE MALAYSIA

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

assalamualaikum

assalamuaikum..
i've been saying this phrase since i was a kid but i just come to understand the meaning, just recently. i've never wonder why we have to say it because i thought that, it is what we have to say every time entering a muslim home. This is where i'm wrong.

Assalamualaikum means please be upon you or in malay it is salam sejahtera ke atas kamu. It is a phrase that we say when we greet our muslim brothers and sisters and this doesn't apply to the people that we only know but it is best to say it to anyone that is muslim because we are all brothers and sisters. If you greet assalamualaikum and smile to me, i would feel at ease and secure. okay...i guess now you're confused, what does it have to do with ease and secure? Let's just imagine that i'm running some errands at a supermarket and while i was picking my vegetable, there is a nice muslim lady greets me assalamualaikum plus with a warm smile. Then, something embarassing happened. I am short of 50 cent! The cashier is already anxious, waiting for my money and then i saw the muslim lady who greeted me just a few minutes ago. In desperate time like that, i would bring my thick face and ask a small favour from her (in this case it's 50 cent!) and the lady helped me. Why do you think i cry for help from her and not other people at the supermarket?

I''m not saying that you can simply ask money from your muslim brothers and sisters just because you greets them (unless if you have extremely thick face!). It is easier to ask for help when you're out and alone.

The last thing i want to add is one of the early signs of kiamat is when you greet assalamualaikum to the people that you only know(family and friends) and another reminder is PLEASE SAY IT PROPERLY not samekom or salamelekom. It wouldn't have the same meaning.

okay..enough blabbing..off to study =)

Assalamualaikum..

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Reminder to me and you

When you feel like your life falls apart - god is testing you
When you're on top of your game - god is helping you
When you've done something bad - seek for forgiveness, for god is oft-forgiving and most merciful

God is always there. We might forgot about that in the midst of superhecticcrazystudentlife, take a moment and be grateful for what we have. All this things that we have can be taken away any minute. Imagine living without it. A simple thing like a finger can be broken anytime. It seems like the people nowadays forget the purpose of this life. Life is short might as well put it in good use for the hereafter are eternity.

Say alhamdulillah when something good has happened or masyaAllah when you see something wonderful.With this little habit, at least you will remember god in whatever you do.

A good advice i got from youtube the other day was don't practice your religion because of your family, culture or the society. Learn and comprehend the religion and find the right path for you. I'm not here to preach but it saddens me to see people around me get lost in this world. We don't have much time left and i pray for anyone who reads my blog to find the right path. InsyaAllah

Thursday, March 18, 2010

my mojo is back=)

i was supposed to do my assignment on microsoft project but i ended up watching 2 movies. dang. it's okay..i'll do it after my subuh prayer. insyaAllah..

update on my internship...
i'll be working in design, construction, completion and commissioning of proposed headquarters building (SEB HQ) for sarawak energy berhad at isthmus island, kuching(yes it is in kuching). Basically, all i do is observe at the site. i hope i can learn a lot from here, give a little sense to me on what i study in class.

the good news: i'll be working on a mega project under a renowned company
the bad news: i'll be working on saturday too, from 8 to 5pm!

at the moment, i've been a little stress out with work and i'm not doing too good in my studies. As a matter of fact, i'm so worried til i don't dare to face it. i rather ignore my feelings by going out or watching movies. butttttt.....not to worry because i just got my mojo back and i hope everything goes well from now on. well, i don't expect that it is going to be an easy ride but at least, i hope i'll survive this semester and get a descend pointer. insyaAllah

nite peeps

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

new blog =)

this is the first post for my new blog. i have a lot of materials to put on this blog but if only i have time to do all that. we'll just have to wait and see....