Daily life

I'm going through another phase in my career and it's been a juggle for me. I am excited on being on my own but scared at the same time.

Alhamdullilah...i just got an extension for my tender...butttttt the dateline is the same as the D&B tender...oh boy...this is gonna be interesting.

1st pic: went out with this two monkey...

2nd pic: wore this fugly shirt to work yesterday for OSHA and i went to dinner at sunway wearing that! Super malu!

3rd pic: This made me happy after a hectic life working!



Here's a few pics frm this two days...

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:)

Since u cant receive my call n text...i'll just say it here...

I MISS U LIKE CRAZY!!!
I miss laughing at all our silly jokes when wake up or when we're abt to go to bed. I miss u syg....come home soon!

Cant wait to do groceries shopping with u!

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Durian fiesta at the office!

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Zoo negara

Life is super full with family time. Will update on silly things that happened thia past few days...

Xoxo

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Cray cray

Work load is piling up and i am excited abt it. I have the opportunity to participate in the design and build tender! This is massive! International client, 20 weeks to construct n submit and only TWO weeks to prepare the tender!That is crazy awesome man. I pray that we get the tender. Amin.


I also have another tender going on and the submission date is on the 5th wheareas the D&B tender will be on the 9th. That is CRAY CRAY!!

The not awesome part is the in laws are coming tonight and they will be staying over for two weeks so i wont be spending much time with them after christmas.


Christmas is coming soon and i have to say that i'm soooo excited! Coz birthday is in a month time...weeee....i always love christmas!

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First fight

Sometimes it gets too overwhelming for me. Laundry, cleaning, cooking, be pretty and working.

Some days are great and some are not so great. I really don't know how our mom does it. Having a child is the last thing on my mind though it gets lonely sometime.

Alhamdulillah i still have friends to keep me sane. Thanx to watsapp i can be in touch with them anywhere and anytime even when i'm in the toilet...

Tomorrow is going to be a better day for me. InsyaAllah..

Ps: one of the best thing after getting married is to perform solat together as husband and wife :)

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I am so fucking pissed

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It's a working saturday for me...

Things to do at work
-Progress report(one done another one to go)
-Tender
-Tkr pc baru....weeee

Things to do at home..
Laundry (wash n fold)
Cook for jamie's bday
Buy groceries
Sapu rumah

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I feel good~

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Alhamdulillah my spaghetti was awesome! Husband loves it and that made me happy :)

Planning to make laksa sarawak this weekend.

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Husband came back last night!

Car couldnt be started this morning so $$$ is flying away

Working is awesome! They keep piling up meaning, i wont have boring days at work.

Tonight i'm gonna make spaghetti bolognaise and lamb chop! Ho yeah~~~ hopefully my husband is gonna like it.


Done pooping..

Adios

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I still love working..

Work work work = Fun fun fun


tp pls mk blt on time coz best friend and husband are waiting

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Can't sleep

It's 2 am and i just finished all my chores and jow i cant sleep coz i'm too excited coz my husband is coming back tomorrow!!

I went back from work around 8.30pm. Have heaps of work when my work shift almost end. As usual~ Well i dont mind coz husband is not on town but if he is, i'll be annoyed.

I miss u!!!!

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Random updates

Last weekend was not as bad as i thought it would be. It turns out to be fun! Don't get me wrong dear, i still miss u!

On friday, I went to the gym next to my office. It was awesome. I had a free one week tria and on my first day i have a personal trainer and he pushed me to work hard and i like it. I still can't believed that i can do 3 sets of 30 sec planks. Normally i can only last 10 secs and only for two sets.

Because of that i motivates myself to go extra mile and i did 5 laps of swimming all by myself! Amazingggg...

I'm gonna try to do 5 sets of plank and 7 laps of swimming tomorrow. i am soooo pumped! Cant wait to work out with my husband!

Btw the pool is not that bad mcm what i thought mlm ya...so i wont feel gelik whatsoever swimming in the pool.

..........

Ira is in town at the moment. $$$ is flying out of my pocket coz i cant resist buying cheap clothes and house stuff in kl. I'm gonna see her again before she leaves to NZ.

Jamie sleptover last weeked and it was awesome. Updated each other with tonnes of stuff. I'm glad we did that. Next sat is going to be her birthday partyyyy~~~

Okay i guess this ia enough for my random update.


Btw working life is greattt as for now...

I cant wait to see u in a few more day. I love u husband!

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:(

It's almost 2am but i couldn't sleep. I miss my husband too much. Syukur alhamdulillah i have friends over and that helped me take away some of the loneliness away.

I miss u n...and i want to see u in my dream tonight?

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Best friend is in town!

Morning love...

I'm at the grand millenium, having breakfast with my dear best friend ira!

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Dear husband...

Syg i hope u read this..

I tried to reply ur msg in fb tp x pat so i decided to just reply ctok.

Syg dont worry about me coz i will take care of myself for u insyaAllah. About the msg, i wont reply so dont worry about it. Kmk xpat mk halang org dr mengenja tp what's important is kmk x melayan and menjadi isteri yg taat kepada suami insyaAllah.

Dont miss me too much coz we'll meet again very soon, insyaAllah...

I love u very much! Boh tinggal smyg n doa before plh apa2 k b.

I'll be goin out with ira tomorrow :))

Ok lastly...mintak ampun if kmk ad plh syg risau or marah ritok. I love u b...

Nite2

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

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Wedding: Part 2

Cont

After the akad nikah, we didnt see each other til the next day. That night was majlis berlulut. I wore 3 types of costume; indian, balqis and egypt. I wasnt feeling well that night. I took my medicine with an empty stomach so i went overdose that night. My head was spinning and I couldnt stand still. My body and even teeth were shaking. I was miserable that night.

The show must go on...i keep on saying that. Family were annoying that night. They keep on asking how much does my wedding cost and so forth. I feel like choking them to death. I mean c'mon...i am NOT going to tell everyone how much is this or that cost. I am not YOU. I found out the ugly truth abt them. Now i like to refer them as piranha.

I was pushing myself that night. I survived because i had a great team of ppl surrounding me. The make up team was amazing! The photograpers were understanding and they helped me to improvise with my pose. They know that i couldnt stand for so long so they asked me to sit and lay on the sofa. In the end...the photos still look amazing! Cant wait to see the result!

26.11.11 ( Reception - Arabic theme)
Alhamdulillah make up was on time and everything went smoothly except when we arrived there. Piranha was being piranha and i was so mad coz we were under the scorching sun. Why cant they wait til we got into the house!

I was feeling much much better that day. It felt great to have a support from husband :)) My clothes+accesories that day weigh more than 5kg! No kidding. It was soooooo heavy. Honestly it look more like indian than arabic. I was supposed to wear another veil but we couldnt find it so i had to wear the fully embroid veil but it felt good coz this is once in a lifetime opportunity to wear such a grand garment.

-Random-
I love my second house and my new family. Mama(trying~) is super cool. Papa is chatty now :) First task were lamb chop and mine was nyaman...yeaaa

We did photoshoot soon after for the video montage for the reception the next day.

Off for lunch...

Stay tune for the final part and wedding photos :))

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Wedding: Part 1

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Alhamdulillah...now i have officially become mrs. Saifuliwan ezzedin and i can say that he is THE ONE!

A lot of things happened behind-the-scene. Some i know and some that is hidden from me. But overall my wedding was perfect eventhough i'm sick most of the time. Let me give u a glimpse on what's going on...









I've been super sick 2 weeks before my wedding day. On that day itself i have 11 ulser on my tongue, 1 on my tonsil, 2 on my lips. I literally couldnt bear swallowing my on sliva coz it was super painfull!

It was so hard for me to recover coz i barely have enough rest. So much to do in so little time. I made a promise to myself that i wont be a bridezilla and will only be a happy bride and alhamdulillah i'm happy most of the time.

On the day of my akad nikah, i couldnt bear the coughing anymore. I asked daddy to bring me to the doctor. So the pic above shows that i was given a neb to clear my airway and relieve my asthma and the i was given an injection for my coughing. I ate like more than 10 pills that morning. So after that i was feeling a bit dizzy.

Then the make up artist came 2 n a half hour late. He was supposed to do my make up at 11 but instead he came at 1.30pm! Plus i was told earlier to leave the house at 2.15pm coz the ceremony will start at 2.30pm! My phone couldnt stop ringing and i tried to keep my cool. When the make up is done...we found out that my inner wasnt with me! At that point I FREAKED OUT! I STARTED TO SCREAM AND YELL AND I WANTED TO CRY! I saw the the jam outside my brother's house(btw i did my make up at my bro's hse and not my house) and it's impossible to be there on time!

Ira and cheryl went back to the house to get my inner. So i started doing my hair and wore my selendang. Half an hour later, they were back with my inner and i got ready in 10 mins!

Cheryl was driving like mad in the crazy traffic. They were a point where we rolled down the window and and we (ira&I) put our head outside and ask ppl to give way. In 5 mins we arrived.

I tried to keep my composure and i was walking super fast to my hse. Then the ceremony starts. I managed to hold my tears!!!!! I only cry when my dad read the paper on giving me to sepul. I held ira's hand so tightly and then when sepul did the akad, i was actually smiling. But that didnt last long coz i broke into tears when i hug my mommy. I felt like i'm not a child anymore and i'm gonna be away with my husband from now. I cryyy and i dont care abt my make up anymore. Then my stupid cousin from my dad's side said 'udah gik org lain gk salam'. I honestly feel like slapping her. C'mon that is a mother daughter moment and she said that. Bodo ka apa?! I cant wait for her daughters to get married and i will be the one who said that when the time comes.


There's more to come...

Stay tune for part 2!

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Bloggerdroid paloi

Assalamualaikum wbt

I've written a longgggg post yesterday on wedding day but blogerdroid refuse to publish it. I am sooo freaking madddd...

All is well...will try again to blog abt it later...

Testing2

I want to be NAKED!

Good morning~~~~
It's 11 am and i'm still at home! I was dizzy this morning coz i slept at 4am last night due to the tummy issue.

I want to talk about what i did yesterday. I went to jln TAR with mila yesterday and it was awesomeeee..a quarter of my pay was swept away but it was an awesome bargain. And i am very satisfied with all my purchases. First stop was to find inner neck. It's the kind of anak tudung you can wear and it covers ur neck so if u want to wear tudung like siti or rosmah...u can wear that first and then the ridonculous expensive chiffon ala siti or rosmah on ur head.

So i bought two and guess from where i bought it! ARIANI! I'm lucking my own spit. That's what the future hubby said when i told him...hahha. For those of u who doesnt know abt that shop, it is one of the mosttttt expensive shop selling tudung. There was one that i saw yesterday that cost 1k! Gilaaaaa...but of course i opt for a cheaper one...duh~ it is expensive if u compare it to the stalls at jln tar but it is much more cheaper than maysaa. So that's why i bought two from there and another one at hajra.

Then i went out to look for hand socks and later on i caught my eyes on this beautifulllll shawl and the material was orgasmic which btw retailing at rm15 only but of course yours truly acting like x puas hati so in the end i got it at rm13!

Then we wanted to go to sogo but the bf arrived so we went to pavi instead. I look like crap i got there but i buat muka watever-i-want-to-shop and i enter shops like dkny, ck n etc. I'm like that...ppl were looking at me from head to toe but i just couldnt be bothered but it wasnt for my friend.

And then *drum roll*

I went to sephora coz my guts is telling that i should check it out and when i got there, i saw NAKED UD!!!!!!!! I straight away grab onto it and i can feel the beam of excitement shining on me. I swear i still cant believe it's in my house now..so of course the hubby bought for me! I know right...i'm so lucky to that kind of a guy who would buy me make up:))))

There's two more things in my wish list left..
TV+ASTRO!

Alhamdulillah!!!!!!Thank u Allah :)

:(

Earlier on I wanted to blog abt the awesome day I have today but i guess the ending is not the way i expected.

It's 3 am and I couldnt sleep becoz my tummy is not feeling well. It's been acting like crazy right after my shower and i have to distract myself so that i dont feel like going to the toilet. So guess what did u i do?

Cooking!

Yup i made porridge just now and it turn out pretty bad...i tried to replicate my mom's porridge but i guess i put too much of coconut milk and it killed the taste of the awesome herbs and it taste yucky. Well we learn frm mistake

murder me pls

I miss my friends. I wish all of u r here. I need u guys more than ever. You are the only circle of friends who understand me. Not even the bf can understand me the way you guys do.

When i'm sad angry lonely...i'll be searching for all of u. Pls dont treat me diff after i get married. I do not want to lose you as my circle of friends because all of you keep me sane.

I wish u guys are here so you can teach him a thing or two abt me. I feel like strangling myself right now. Feel like jumping off from this building coz i hate myself more than ever at this very moment. It's a sinful thinking but i'm just being honest.

I'm not happy and I'm so depressed.

weehooo

Aloha~

It's 11.11.11 and it's a good day for me coz today i get to go for a site visit to menara hap seng and guess where it is! It's at jalan p ramlee near klcc! This is the site that i always look from the mirror when i stayed over at k.amy's place. Homaigod!

I went back from work around 9+pm last night and we went for groceries shopping at tesco. That is my favvvvv shopping place at the moment coz i rather splurge on food than clothes..

Off to site

Bye...

working is awesome

It's only 10.25 am but so far the work is super awesome.

The PM just called the newbies to the photostate room and he explained to us thr important things that we should take note on the construction drawings. It was super awesome and i was tryong hard to be professional coz deep inside i can feel my face is glowing.

It's one of the best feeling ever for a 35 years experienced proj manager to teach us freshies on the basic things at side. Eg...what type of steel or concrete they actual use at site.

I told him i wanted to go to site soooooooo badly and he told us that he'll be bringing us this friday! Though he did comment on our clothing...fyi i'm wearing black skirts with wedge...hahaha

I lovee my job...

Ok done with my poop...hahahhahajha

Adios...

sorry seems to be the hardest word

The bf is pissed after reading the previous post.

Well i can write whatever i want here. This is where i express what i'm feeling inside.

I hate how things are at the moment. 17 more days to go. I dont want to stop being my daddy's little girl. I would still want him to protect me from any guys that has been trying to mess around with me. I'll miss having random talk with mommy. Omg i'm crying while typing this. I'll miss spending time in my parents room...chatting, gossiping. I dont ever want to change that after i got married. I will always be my daddy's little girl.

I dont expect this post to be this way. I thought that i'll be full of angst but instead i'm crying...missing my dear parents. Things have changed so much over the years. In school, i'm known for not liking my parents especially my mom but during matrix..that fact have changed. We talk about everything and i know for a fact that she misses her sister (al-fatihah to arwah aunt salmah).

Okay love...i'm sorry...
I'm just too stressed and freaked out about living with someone for real. It scares the shit out of me. And i guess you're right. I wanted everything to be perfect but i guess nobody's perfect..i love u b. The reason why i wanna marry you is because i love you so much and I want to grow old and have kids with you di dunia n akhirat. I love you b...

sakit jiwa

IScrew all the happy post before. This post is going to be full of angst.

Aku sakit jiwa dan raga nektok. I feel like why on earth would i want to change how things work.

The men keep questioning...why do we women whine a lot. Why do we become so uptight and the list goes on. The answer would be...because we have to take care of a baby in the house and that baby is YOU.

You know that we're working too and yet we still have to cook for u while u watch tv or play games. And then you dont even have the decency of thanking your wife for cooking but the worst would be you complain abt the food not being tasty..oh wait this is worst, you look at the food and then return watching tv or play games. Fuck you people!

You like to make a mess like drinking using so many mugs and u'll leave it everywhere. When u're having snacks, you dont bother on the crumbs you made on the floor.

You dont care abt the laundry!

And then you expect us to 'perform' in bed based on your fucking needs and when we asked for it but you're not into it, you just left.

What the fuck is wrong with you ppl. Doesnt mean that u put a roof above our head, you can do anything you want.

Grow up! The moment you decided to get married, you need to throw away the old habits at home. If I were to act like hiw i used to be, i wouldnt be cooking for you. I wouldnt even be sleeping with you and you'll have to buy me stuff when i asked you to. As you can see, i left my old habits at home. I guess it's time for u to do that.

Stop being selfish and self centered and start thinking like a man. And this does not only mean financially.


Saying sorry is not enough. We, women likes to see result. So prove to us that you're the kind of man that we want to marry and please stop being a baby.

fuck

Fuck. I feel used. I feel so fucking used.

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Assalamualaikum wbt

Cleaning has always been my passion. No matter how tired i am when coming back from work, i will still do the cleaning. It gives a sense of joy and proud when it's sparkly clean. (btw this post is random and i swear it will bore u so u can proceed to the next blog)

I love my apartment because it's easy to clean and I feel contented with everything that i have.

I'm gonna play the dance floor later on...woot2...

I don't know whether I should invite her to the wedding. She was being a bitch to me TWICE before this so isn't it a dumb thing to do if I were to invite her to my wedding. One of my friends said that I should let bygones be bygones but i know that i will never be able to forgive and forget what she has done to me. The reason why I went away is because of her. I want to meet new ppl and new surrounding so alhamdullillah that's where i am right now.


Work life has been really good. Sometimes i feel like pinching myself whether i'm dreaming or not. I love my job and the ppl i'm working with.

I love the fact that i have friends that i can rely on no matter how far we are.

I remember watching one three hill when i was in high school and the opening for the new season was FIVE years later. It shows the different life they have since high school and now that they're working. At that time, i thought where i will be 5 yrs.

Life was crap before. So many drama on love life, friendship and family. There was a point when i feel suicidal. But things change when i go to matrix. New friends came into my life and they gave me so much joy. Life were full of drama in the beginning but it ended pretty awesome.

Then university life started and so did my love life.

I have to thank all the lecturers, staffs and my friends over there because THEY have shaped me and I see life in a new perspective. I remember the promise i made and i will come back to give a talk in 20 yrs from now. InsyaAllah...

Cinta has been great and i cant wait to be his wife in 18 more days! The house is ready for him to move in :)

welcome november

This is THE month that I have been waiting for! Oh lala...

Money

That is the one thing that can stress me out in a split second. When u're living alone, money is crucial in order to survive. So when some parties only think about themselves, THAT is just so fucked up.

Life at the moment is survivable for me. Although the rental of this house takes a a quarter of my pay, the food is cheap coz now i cooked my own food and the petrol is cheaper coz the distance to the office is shorter plus i'm staying with my collegue so it's a plus2. But soon things will change coz i'll be staying with the fiance and i just knew that he is not to keen on the idea of carpooling. That is pretty much sucks for me coz carpooling saves a lot in my $$$. Plus my collegue is planning to stay with her sister, meaning that i'll be driving alone in the jam.

I'm gonna miss having someone who will cook on alternate days with me. Oh boy...i'm already missing someone who is actually cooking in front of me.

Back to the old life

Alhamdulillah..i'm back in kl and sleeping in my own bed. How comfortable it is to go back to my own house.

I'm glad that i'm back here abd i wouldnt talk abt wedding stuff the whole time. I have a tender to submit this friday so it's going to be a wee hooo ride for me!

Nite2 peeps

this is a crazy world

Assalmualaikum wbt.

Alhamdulillah..today i survived the crazy storm aka wedding hecticness. Well I have to thank my dear friend for helping me to be sane. I love u kawan!

The first thing I did today was designing the wedding cake. One word ro describe my cake would be elegant. It's going to be a 3 tier cake. With roses in different shades of pic covering alternate sides on the two cakes on top and the bottom cake will have lace and flowers sketching. What i love abt this cake is the details that is going to be put into it. Honestly...i know that my cake would too pretry to eat. I would be forever thankful to mummy for giving me my dream cake.

Next in line was meeting my grandma. I love spending time with her and listening to her stories. She was upset that now i'm working in kl..haha

Then came the fitting for the reception dresses. It was soooo hectic. I was trying as hard as I can to not be rude to anyone. All i wanna say is...i want to pick my own dress coz it's my wedding.

Break down n cry with pritti..

Finally meet the parents session started and it all went fine.

Am sooo tired now. I feel like i can sleep while typing thid post...



Niteee

Home sweet home

Testing2...

I just downloaded this apps called blogger droid to enable me blogging through my phone coz it's more convenient and i can update you regularly on the wedding stuff. It's 1.44am and i'm about to go to sleep. Am so tired but pumped all at the same time.

I honestly think that my wedding would be beautiful! Tomorrow morning, i'm going to pick my wedding cake and from the sound of it, this person is superb..we'll see how it goes tomorrow. After that, i'm going to shop for a new mattress for my bed then later on i'll be visiting my grandma in batu kawah :)) i'm sooooo happy that she didnt break her promise and she's coming to my wedding..insyaAllah...in fact mummy just told me that she'll be the one whose going to make the air mandi bunga for my wedding. How awesome is that! By the way that woman is already 90! So i'll be so honoured for this opportunity.

After meeting her, i'm going straight to sepul's place for dinner and discuss further for his side of reception. Around 9.30 pm, we'll be having a meeting between my parents and his to finalize everything.

Off to bed peeps. I'm sooooo excited.......oh la la

Your blog is dusty -saifuliwan-

Assalamualaikum wbt

Ze fiance said that this blog is collecting dust and I have to agree with him. I have been soo busy on "life" lately and that has made me neglect updating this blog. So without further ado..here are the photos taken during my M.I.A

My work station

Working in KL is hard core and that is exactly what I wanted. I work from 8.30 until 6 or 7pm. There was one time when I came back around 9.30pm. However, I'm blessed to be working with such an incredible team and I learn a lot from them. Still can't believe that I've been working for almost 3 months. How time flies. From here I met a new friend =)

Mila

She is among the few people that I click instantly. My collegues thought that we came from the same university hence the closeness but when we told them that we just met at the office..they were surprised. Now, she has become my housemate!

Cinta sedang menjadi general worker@buruh kasar

When I first started moving in, I never knew the amount of time, money and energy will be taken away from me. Things were a bit stressful in the beginning. With the limited $$$ we have, it's a struggle to decide which item should we buy first and in the end, we decided to buy the bed for our first purchase. For the first two weeks, I have been sleeping at 1.30am every night and it has taken its toll on my skin. My face looks like the ass of the frying pan. No kidding!

I have to get my house done for my royal highness and that is none other than.....

This is how she pujuk mummy to buy her keropok..pfft!

I swear I've rotated this pic tp blogspot is being degil so enjoy the pic!

They stayed for a week and let me tell you something, it's tiring to be a host even if the guest is your own family but it's worth it. Then graduation came and I became mak datin on that day coz I came with my rayban and beautifulll heels.

Class of 2011

After graduation, we did a lot of shopping but this time it was different. We bought stuff for home instead of clothes and bags. It was sad that went to ikea at 9pm so there's only 1 and a half hour left before the shop close but we still managed to buy loads of stuff. I honestly can't imagine if we were there the whole day. I bought pots and pans and a whole bunch of kitchen goodness.

The next day, I went to giant with mummy and oh boy..that woman sure know how to shop! I will never forget that day. I went there, empty handed and I came out with TWO carts of groceries+additional kitchen goodness. From there on, I started cooking for dinner after work so I'll eat around 10. It's so worth it, coz I know it's clean, free from any jampi2 and the most important thing is...I COOK IT MYSELF!

I guess I should leave you with my ayam goreng special!

=)

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Hey peeps
Sorry that I have been missing lately. A big thank you to blogspot for upgrading it which made me unable to post anything from my phone!

Anywhooss..
I have moved in to my new house and all I can say is I LOVE IT! I know I have promised to upload the pics of my previous places that I stayed in before and in the end..I abu-abu...but this time..for real I'm gonna upload it but not in the this blog. Since the bf said that my other blog is pointless to have coz I don't upload anything nowadays, might as well just change the purpose to my new home&living. So I'll be blogging on the decoration, ideas, prices and places to go at that blog.

So stay tune
=)

Alhamdulillah, I am a muslim :)

Assalamualaikum wbt dear reader,

It's been a while since I last did this kind of introduction.

I am in awe right now after reading the quran translation. I feel so ashamed for even questioning whether or not Allah exist. Why am I born a muslim. Why am I required to cover my aurat and why is it so many rules in my religion.

The more I read the quran, the more it make sense to me. It makes me feel like this so called rules are not boundary and restriction of me having fun but it's actually a way of living that will benefit me in the after life which is eternal. Why must I sacrifice the hereafter for this temporary life. We know that this world is messed up and there are so many mean people in this world and yet we want to be in this clique. Does that even make sense to you? No right...

I feel blessed that I am among the chosen one to be born a muslim and I am forever greatful for the hidayah that has been given to me. MasyaAllah, Subhanalllah, Alhamdulillah..

My tears couldn't stop rolling when I was reading surah Al-Anbiya. Especially ayat 35 and definitely 92!!!! There's a lot of hidden and undiscovered secret in it which I can sense by reading it.

Out of all the book that i have read, Quran is the best to date. I don't mean to be cliche here but there's a lot of interesting stories in there. Before this, I always listen on the stories about nabi isa as. rasulullah saw. daud as. from our teachers, friends or when we listen to other ppl's conversation but reading it first hand from quran is different.

I reckon that everyone should read the quran regardless your colour and religion. I mean what do u have to lose? I want to read so many books..bible, buddha scripture, jew's book which i forgot wat it's called and so on. All of this has been mentioned in the quran so I want to read it as well.

Subhanallah...thank you Allah for all the blessing that you have given me. I pray that all of u will be given hidayah and guidance frm Allah swt.


May all of us meet in jannah (paradise)...insyaAllah

Assalamualaikum wbt.

THE SILENCE

If only bf is here tonight...

I would be excited on going back
I wouldn't dread about my lonely weekend
I would drive as fast as I can to reach home
I would rush to take a shower and be ready in 15 mins for our date tonight

But he's not here
And I have the view of a wardrobe wreck and a small lawn that hasn't been mowed for at least a month.

This my life exactly two months before my wedding. Single life is boring when u don't have family or friends around you. I guess this is the silent before the big MESS i'm gonna get myself into. I'll just pamper myself this weekend. Perhaps going for a massage or spa....that would be nice but that also means $$$$ or maybe i can just do a little grooming to myself. my face is full of bushes. I can't even bear looking at myself in the mirror.

The MESS will start next week coz

*drum roll please*

I WILL BE MOVING TO MY NEW HOUSE NEXT SATURDAY! And the best thing is I won't be working! So I can clean and make it homeyyyyy!

Things to buy:
glass and floor cleaner
mop, broom, toilet brush, dust pan
candle
bed and wardrobe (for this i'll have to wait for the dearest to come back from brunei)
oh and window treatment!

The following MESS would be......my graduation and my parents+ika are coming and they would be staying with me! A lot of shopping will be done when they're here...woohooo


FINAL MESS WOULD BE THE WEDDING
I would be flying back for only 3 days to do the last minute preparation...oh dear...

Bliss

I am blogging from the toilet because that is the only free time I have nowadays.

I can't believe that I have been working for almost two months. All I can say is I'm loving every minute of it. I have always wanted to be like alia(proud duck's cousin) because she is very passionate with her job(i read her blog that's how i know) and I pray that some day I'll be like that too when I was in Uni. Well I guess my dream came true cause I love the roller coaster ride of my job.

Yes some people complain that I work for long hours and the jam that I have to go through twice a day but it's worth it.

In 10 more days, i'll be moving in to my new house!!!!!!! I'm excited that i'm gonna have a couch to seat and watching tv at the same time. Coz now I sleep, eat and watch movies using my phone on my mattress! Sad isn't it?

Btw the bf is working in brunei so I guess i'll work this weekend coz there's ntg much to do...


Okay my poop is done...

tata..

First big blow

I woke up today from mira's phone call. She's in kk right now for training. How cool is that! I am sooooo happy for her!

Life has not been treating kind for the past few days. Problems keep arising and it's a bit overwhelming for me. We had a HUGE fight on the night when we did our first house visiting and I seriously thought that it's going to be over. That is the first big blow for us. I glad that we came to our senses and made up.

Today, I can say that I am truly happy. I have.found our new home and I'll be moving in next month. I can't help from feeling excited. I can't wait to decorate the house. Feel free to drop by when u're in town!

fuck!

Babi babi babi

I so fucking hate this feeling. All I want is to have some fucking quality time together. That's all.


Fucker! Plus i am so fucking mad conow the mother and sis read my blog ao i cant fucking curse in my own fucking blog.

So now..i am going to fucking shut this whole down and i can only fucking reminisce the memories of what I have left in my head.

Fuck!

3 months before the wedding

So many people are planning to get married in this year but many of them cancel it in the end. Am I on the same road?

4 years into this relationship, you ought to know the good and the bad of your partner. You tend to take things for granted and you stop making each other feel special and soon the sparks of the relationship will fade. In the end, both of you will go into automode and be excellent best friend.

I've had a turmoil breakdown for the past few weeks and I asked myself, is he worth this fight? Is this bad feeling going to end. Am I ever gonna be in love like before? and etc....

I look for self help book and google about this and not one of them suggest that I should be in this relationship. I talked to my best friend, hoping that she can enlighten me with this mess...but she was on the other side too. So I turn to my partner and observe him in scrutinizing details and every mistake he made will determine the path of this relationship.

(as i am writing this post, i still have no idea how this is going to end)

All that is tiring. Then, the turmoil turn 180° and I start blamming myself for everything that was happening. Another emotional breakdown was coming my way.

Am I bipolar or am I born to be full of angst? How is this going to end? Will this be the last raya we ever get to spend together?

3 months left before the big wedding and all this need to change. I need to stop thinking about the escape route and start on my emergency plan. This will not end without a big fight.

I pray that Allah swt will guide me every step of the way. InsyaAllah...

just maybe..

I've never felt this distant before. Is the the test from Allah swt or is this the sign from him not to continue this relationship. I'm lost. I've tried to read the self help book to deal with this issues but things are still the same.

Maybe this is just a phase.
Maybe things are gonna be fun like it used to
Maybe i can be less sensitive and put my feelings in the box and just dont care..
maybe...

i'm so tired but my housemates are being total scum bag at the moment.

i feel like i'm in the movie of date night. i can totally relate to tina fey's role...

Island full of IDIOTS

Sorry for not updating this blog as promised coz i have a lot on my plate lately.

I am so so mad with people right now. I'm in my cave again right now where I just don't want to see anyone including the bf. EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING annoys me. I do not know how to fix this. The only thing that makes me happy is working. I love having things to do. If there is a bed at the office, i would just sleep there.

Today is nuzul quran so i have my day off and i feel like my head is going to explode! I was up by 8 and i've been doing laundry and pack my stuff. Btw i'm moving out coz i feel like killing my housemate..i'll blog about this some other time. Back to the story...everyone are still asleep...housemates and bf and that annoys me like hell..i mean duhhh it's ramadhan. If u're planning to sleep the whole day..might as well u just eat when u wake up.

When he finally wakes up, we went to jakel. Omigod I feel like I want to stab myself. The music was so loud and humans are EVERYWHERE!

I pray that this hatred feeling would go away. I feel tired being angry all the time but i cant help it coz idiots are everywhere.

It's almost 2pm..what am i gonna do to get through the day...

my bf is a blog critic

Bf said my blog is boring. No gossip no drama no nothing and he said my post is so short and inconsistent.

Because of that, i'll write a longggggg post tonight sampai u want to muntah tonight...


stay tune folks..

ps: cuba ktk plh blog lok...ingin mek critic..

happy saturday :))

Good morning peeps. It's a beautiful saturday and I've been up since sahur. Eventhough I'm very sleepy at the moment but I refuse to go back to sleep coz I want to train my body clock to be up since subuh and sleep at 11pm.

It took me two hours to clean my room, kitchen and the living room of this house. So you can imagine how small this apartment is. Usually it takes me one whole day to clean my house or even half a day just to clean the kitchen.

That is why I don't really mind doing the GC alone coz the house is small and their stuff x ngambo. Anywhoos...i'm feeling crafty today. It's time to decorate my room. I want something artsy with lots of colours :)

ramadhan :)

Today is the 3rd day of ramadhan. so far so good. The bf is going to singapore again today. Although he said that it's not going to be long but i don't want to put high hopes in it. This time I will definitely miss him more because I have been living around him for the past 4 days since my new place is just the opposite of his housing area so we break fast and go to tarawikh together. It feels nice going with him for change but at the same time i miss going with my mom. Does that even make sense?

happy fasting :)

assalamualaikum wbt.

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Today is the first day of ramadhan as well as my first day at my new job. I am now working at a constructuon company called al-ambia. Don't be fooled by the name because it is fully own by chinese. What I can say about my work is I'm enjoying every moment of it. My designation for this company is neither a designer nor an engineer..instead it's a scheduler also known as planning engineer jr.

Who would have thought that out of 53 students in my class, I would be the one practising what we learn in Ir. salihuddin's class of construction management and FINANCE! I deal with ghantt chart, CPM and of course MICROSOFT PROJECT. I have been reading the manual this whole day and by the end of today I was given a tender to be submitted in two weeks time. My cute ala korean character collegue will be teaching me on how to do it and i am excited to learn! I finally feel like my career is taking off in the right direction now...

It's already 11.38pm so i guess i better go to bed now coz tomorrow is another learning day for me...yeaaaa

My first house

i'm at my new hse. I am sooooo happy that all my stuff is with me! act not all since i have more stuff at store at another place but this is still a lot. i'll post the pic of my room before and after later. I want to make it as comfortable and home-ish. I just knew that my hsemate has a cat and i hate that. but it's okay..my room will be out of their boundary so i dont think there will be any problem. i can see that these ppl are not the cleanest ppl so i think we might need some ground rule...

or i can just be anti social and mind my own business. what do u think?

i'm going to ikea later and shop for room stuff!!!! boh jelessss...hahah

last day at loo nyuk shing

i'm already in the office and as usual the only one here at the moment with the big boss.

argh....nebes doeeeee

how should i start the conversation????????


i thing i need to poop for inspiration...haha

The story behind it

Yesterday was a long day for me. After a long day at work, I went back early for the first time which is 5.15pm! Usually I go home at 6pm!

Everyone is rushing to go back home that day due to the match malaysia vs singapore last night at bukit jalil. I almost got into an accident because of that! I was driving quite fast on my lane and suddenly this dude coming from no where and went to my lane. I did emergency break and I can hear the tyre screeching. I manage to stop on time but I fear that a car behind me might knock my car and hit him. Thank god there was none! Super fucking pissed lah to this people. Is the match last night worth risking ur life?

My mood change after I got a phone call from larry. He interviewed me the day before and he offered me the job! I was stunt and sooooooo happy until i can't construct a proper sentence. In the end I sound like this...

Larry: I'm here to inform u that u got the job
Me: how long does this offer open¿

Wtf right????? I act wanted to say THANK U AND I WOULD LOVE TO WORK WITH U tp instead i said that...haih..

I'm nervous to go to the office today. I don't know how to face my two face boss. Nightmareeee

Tiring day indeed

i went for the interview to be planning engineer in a construction company. I really hope I get it but i'm not so sure whether I did well or not during the interview. I did so many mistakes and I don't think I perform to my best capability but now I can only put it in HIS hand whether or not I get this job. The result will be in a week so finger cross!

I found a house already! The price is reasonable and it's just opposite of bf's house. Mom and dad was worried at first and they wanted me to rent it with my friend but after I told them that sepul stayed near by, they were okay with it. So this coming friday, I'll be moving to the new house. It's nice coz it's very clean and I have a room on my own! OMG can't wait to shop for the new room!!! I can smell ikea =)))

So tomorrow night, I must break into the pantry room and get my stuff!!

mental note: must learn how to unlocked the door...

K.N.A.C.K.E.R.E.D!

It has been the most eventful weekend in kl for me so far...well after starting my work life. After work I drove straight to hulu hulu langat to my uncle's orchard. They called for a durian feast and of course I did not let it pass by. Since the bf is not here, this is my opportunity to eat durian as much as I want and that is exactly what I did. One hour later, my tummy started to bloat and it was giving me a hard time to breathe. Then yak ani gave me some indigestian pill and a herbs drink which taste sooooooo pahit!

The orchard was very pretty and I look forward to go there again seriously!

After that,I went straight to pavillion with my aunt and cousin. They wanted to buy some stuff there. I bought a top from forever 21:)) Sadly I didn't find any bag that I like coz I don't have enough time. I will find a time where I'll go to pavi n klcc to find the perfect bag and shoe.

Today i went to jln tar with them again and I found a gorgous bj pengantin which is super murahhhhh! But i didn't buy it.

Now I feel like i'm gonna get sick real soon so tonight i'll come to bed early..ermm..hopefully..


BF IS COMING REAL SOON! CAN'T WAITTT

I AM A WORKAHOLIC

Ya Allah. I've been working like the whole day! I am so freaking tired now and I can collapse anytime. I got a call from the main contractor and she wants me to submit the tender by monday before noon that is why I have to bring my work back so that tomorrow I can hopefully start the second part of this tender. But I have no idea how to do it. Well it depends on my boss tomorrow. If tomorrow is my last day of work than I don't have to continue this job. We'll see. I've work from 9am to 12am. With one hour break for lunch and maybe 3 hours of break(drive back home, tapau mcD and watch harry potter..sempattt)

I love working but I hate the pay!

Work sucks but i'm glad that I have the support from mommy and daddy

Today was fine. Actually it's more than fine..it was really good. My boss was actually satisfied with my work. I'm almost done with the operation and maintenance manual for sime darby brunsfield, I helped my boss with smth on autocad and she was damn impress that i did it in 10 minutes coz she expects that i'm gonna take half a day. As a reward for all that, she was kind enough not to raise her voice whenever i ask a question to her. she even teach me smth on BQ which she should do on my very first day but it's better late then never right.


Mommy called after work and she was pushing me to quit my job and go home. She even give me things to say to my boss and it sounds like this. Hey u two face double standard bitch. Raise my pay oh wait make it higher coz i work more than the rest or i'll Q.U.I.T!! She keeps on repeating that I have ntg to lose and only to come back when sepul already have a stable job and a house.

Then the phone was passed to daddy and he was more reasonable. He told me the way to negotiate and not to be too hard on my boss as she might have some network and that might ruin my career in the future. He said he'll call my uncle to pull some strings here. Hmmm we'll see. He's big in the banking and insurance world but i'm not sure on the construction part so we'll see.

We'll see what happen on saturday coz i will talk to my boss on that day and give my ultimatum. A part of me want to sambung masters...hmm

DepressionDepression

I have been crying for over an hour now. I have come to a point where I just burst. There's smth bothering me at the office and I don't know how to handle it.The best way to handle this is to get a new job be it in kuching or kl. I need a boss who can respect the worker so that i can give my very best to the company.

Daddy called and I just pour everything to him. EVERYTHING including the fight I had with sepul which is really a stupid thing to do and knowing how he is. He would want to do smth about it for instance he asked for sepul's num and I got panicked so I lied saying that he's in singapore and couldn't be contacted. Men likes to fix things but not everything are meant to be fixed. Sometime we just want that person to listen and just be concern about it.


I don't know how to convey this thing to the bf and it's very frustrating. Maybe i'm too moody or maybe he's just as cold as stone. I don't know but this topic has been on the top of fight list which I had.

While I was crying talking to my dad about my depression, I can hear that mommy is eager for me to work in kuching. seriously...


we'll see where I end up. I do not want to be any longer at this company...

Nite2...it's 1.12am already...zzZzz...

the story behind harry potter

counting minutes to go inside the hall...

i have never in my life get so excited/desperate of wanting to watch a movie so badly like this! I am now in alamanda by myself cause I want to watch harry potter. I drive directly from work.

I have always wanted to go watch movie on my own and finally i'm doing it. I almost did not get the ticket because it was fully book and i wanted to buy the ticket for tomorrow but suddenly i got the idea of buying the uncollected reserve ticket. So after waiting for half an hour and while i'm doing that my eyes are stuck on the screen praying that no one will collect the ticket and it's time to buy it.

When I came up to the counter there was 3 seats left!

Alhamdulillah! This is exactly what i needed after having a bad day regarding the fucking wage that i get at the company.

i want to quit seriously...

dah2...x mk spoil mood gk...

off to watch the movieee

byEeeeeeeeeee

Working girl

I totally forgot what I wanted to talk about after reading PD's blog.

Oh now I remember!

Today was a good work day for me. I was busy as a bee and I was racing against time. It's my first time doing a tender all by myself. I'm very excited about it. I started in a very slow pace but after a while I get the hang of it. I'm in the middle of preparing the BQ at the moment. I feel like a super woman today because I handle two things right now. First is the operation and maintenance manual for brunsfield project and the other one is preparing a tender for masjid in seksyen 13 shah alam.

At first I was very worried that I might count it wrongly and but after thinking that I'm doing it for masjid, it gives me a sense of calmness. I hope that we can get this project because I would love to be a part of it. This tender was supposed to be submitted by noon tomorrow so i panicked cause i just started doing it today. It was left laying on my table the whole day yesterday cause I was busy doing smth else. But in the end, i was told by my boss that the client postpone the submission. I think she can sense I was at ease by the news. So I terus blt after that tp that was already like 6pm!

Whoa...so much blabbing on my working life. I actually miss the bf so much and I cant wait for him to be back next week but I dont want to put my hopes high cause I'm scared that he'll be leaving to somewhere else the next day like last time. I honestly don't mind being a workaholic cause I have nothing better to do here anyway...


Sorry if I bore u with my story....

what i did today

Today i've watched 3 harry potter movie because.....
i'm always blur when i tgk wyg because x igt wat happen before so since this new movie will be the last harry potter movie, i do not want to be blur. I'm gonna watch the movie on one of the weekdays at sunway ALONE. Coz bf is still not here and so mls want to go back, shower, pick up my frens n tgk wyg. so better i go alone nakkkk..at least i wont be stuck in the jam after work.

Today I did some shopping haul at jusco balakong. For your info, my life so far is like living in a trailer. I only have a very small bag that can be a hand luggage for my clothes and one carry bag for my shawl and make up. The rest of my stuff is locked in the pantry room. I've begged the ppl in charge but they still refuse to open the door. So reluctantly I have to go and buy the clothes and shoes for work AGAIN.

Then came a miracle, while i was walking along the aisle I saw rows and rows of bj kurung. I'm like "great! now I have to buy my own bj kurung for this raya" so i was bummed by that thought. Then i pick some working tops and the cheapest i can find is rm29.90 and i'm like 'ok i can buy two of these eventhough it's fugly'. Suddenly I saw the 70% off sign so i drop the things in my hand and walk towards it. There it was....a row full of baju kebaya top and it's only rm39 BEFORE discount! I'm like hell yeah now i can buy 4 tops but in the end i bought only 2 coz i was being frugal and I bought one slack that was less than rm20 because it was also 70% off as well and a wedge from vincci that was only rm44(20% less).
The best thing is i can wear the tops for raya! 2 ekor burung mati skali...weeee...

As you can see, i am now being very calculative because every cent counts. I am learning to live on my own so i need to be smart and buy what i need and not what i want. mun sik dh lamak i go klcc and buy the primer potiom from urban decay. i felt like crying when i saw it is available now through fb.

Good night people. Tomorrow is my second day of work. Hope it's going to be a better day for meee...


Roger out

$$$$$$$$

wish list:

tilam frm ikea
my stuff in the pantry room
my own room which i will decorate it!
buy a wedding ring for syg
go to the site waaa

5 years ago

i used to be skinny
i used to have descent looking thigh
i used to have so many bj kurung/ kebaya/dresses for parties
i used to drive toyota
i used to be single
i used to be heart broken
i used to be in the spot light for drama

5 years later....

i gain weight
my thigh is caressing with each other every time I walk
i have lots of tees and shawl
i'm driving atos
i'm engaged and going to get married with my high school sweet heart in 4 months!
my life revolves on my family, bf and very close friends

In 5 years from now....

I only have one wish and that would be a good wife, daughter, mother, worker and a friend for dunia and akhirat. Amin...

first day at work

I am so damn tired and i feel super lonely here. Thank god that I wouldn't be working tomorrow.

What I have to say about my first job is...I hate the scope of work. My bosses are fine and my collegue are great coz they're all chinese so less drama but I hate doing office work. I was asked to prepare a document for submission to the client so it involves a lot of photostate, excel and words. I HATE IT.

There was one time when i sneakily look at the site pic and I was going awww...eventhough yhe pic is only showing a hole at the bare soil that shows pipe underneath it. see how pathetic i am and how much I want to work on site.

I am so fucking fed up whenever ppl give me stupid look of shock or remarks that I want to work on site. Bodo na juak dah nama CIVIL ENGINEERING. IF AKU TAKUT DGN PANAS BGS AKU AMBIK COMPUTER SCIENCE JAK...ok that's random but watever.

i'm actually blogging from padang. although my food dah siap but i am so desperate to let this out. On my way home, i keep on thinking about home and bf. omigod i miss them!


ok org seblah merokok! super sik cool.

bye2...

Back to reality

It's 12.23am and i finally rest my head on this bed. I miss the luxury bed with plush pilice lawn and pool. When I got here, all I see is the guard with gardens full of cars. well apparently jabatan kementerian is organizing an event at my uni..pfft..

I've always read vivy and kandee's blog amd they always complain how tired they are with their busy life and now i can say that I KNOW HOW THAT FEELS.

I woke up at 3.45 this morning and snoozed it til 4. When I woke up, the day is bright and when I look at the clock it was 6.12 am and i felt the most horrible thing ever because my flight was supposed to be at 6.15am! Ran to the bf's room and woke him up with that ugly news. I felt bad for waking him like that coz he's been tired with work.

So the bf suggested to buy a ticket bus and lucky for me I bought the ticker for 2.30 pm. We bid fair well before he leaves to work and suddenly I feel so alone at the house. So as usual I do a little cleaning around the house and washing as well as folding the clothes one last time before I leave.

When I got to harbour front, all I can say is IT WAS AMAZING. I wish I have more money to spend!

I'm gonna post the pics tomorrow. Too tired to on my laptop. right now i'm blogging through my phone.

Arrived at sunway at 8.30pm. Jamie and dave picked me up and we went to asia cafe for dinner and straight to alamanda to take my car. I need it for tomorrow. Btw tomorrow is first day at work so i'm gonna buy red bull so that i would look lively.

now i'm tired and my body is aching. i miss the bf so much and i don't know when we're gonna meet again. I hope he'll be back by the end of the month for kursus kahwin.


I miss u b...

nite2 world

Day 2 and 3

I spent my afternoons by the beach and I feel so serene. The weather is lovely and it's very windy, the only down side is the beach view is full of ships. It takes about 20 to 25 minutes of walking from the place I'm staying and I feel so fit when I do this power walk. It does hurt my thigh and hips but I know it's good for burning the fats. 

After going to the beach, I like to go to the pool of my apartment and see byk org putih (sadly it's kids most of the time) playing by the pool. They have this huge chess set and nice lawn so they always play around here. 

One thing that I love about singapore is they walk their dogs everywhere. You can see them at the park, mall. They have very pretty dogs and the one that I love most is in this pic below. It's one of the reasons why I like going to the pool so that I get to see the dog =)

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This veranda caught my eye!

I came across this funny looking bus when I was walking back to the apartment after going to the mall. There is a crab on the top of the bus!

Oh..btw I bought my wedding ring already. I'll talk more about it in my other blog =)

Day 1: Esplanade

Today is the second day i'm here and all I have to say is I LOVE TRAVELLING! I'm staying at *drum roll* please

Yesterday, I slept most of the day and did a little cleaning on this house. While I was browsing through the newspaper, I found this! Amazing how they even advertised this on the newspaper..

Around 4pm, I'm geared up to go to east coast park which is only 20 minutes away from this apartment and suddenly the bf called and said that he's going to be back soon and he's planning to go to esplanade. So I walked back to the apartment and waited for him. So these are some of the pics that I took yesterday.

The durian looking building

I was amazed by this mega structure

The famous tourist hotspot

Of course the mascot

Him

yours truly =)

Us =)

A performance that we didn't get to see =(

Stay tune for more adventure =)

BERSIH made me elope to singapore!

I'll be out of town for a while to meet the bf :) KL is super scary now and it makes me feel like living in the movies like 2012 or the day after tomorrow. The traffic was so bad due to the road block and many road closure. It feels suffocating when listening to the road updates on the radio.

So I decided to elope for 5 days to Singapore and be a tourist and explore singapore with very limited cash. The bf is going to work the whole day and I might see him in an hour or two each day but for me that is good enough.

We'll see on how I'm doing tomorrow. I'll be doing a little research on what to do there tonight. I am so tired now coz i only have a few hours of sleep last night.

off to an adventure :)))

Boring life part 2

I feel like going home but the cheapest ticket i can find is rm272. It's cheap though considering that it's a return ticket but i don't want to spend more of my parents cash. see how thoughtful i am!

What if I go to singapore? that's a good idea! i'll check the ticket later...

I'm so bored. I didn't sleep well last night coz i still dont feel like this is my room. since my stuff is still in pantry, i have a very limited clothes to wear. Honestly I only have 2 descent pants and 1 shirt to wear. I'm so broke now, i don't have money to buy clothes. urgh...

mommy called just now so i guess i'll just give her a call

toodles..

ps: i'm gonna start reading books now coz movies dh abis nangga dlm laptop..huhu

DON'T EVEN THINK OF COMPARING ME WITH OTHERS DON'T EVEN THINK OF COMPARING ME WITH OTHERS

I'll be so fucking pissed whenever people question about my career and my paycheck. Why do I want to be QS and not civil engineer and why is my pay so low compare to others.

I am so fucking tired of explaining. Haven't u heard that rezeki org lain2? So what if I can't be an engineer now? and who the hell do u think u are to compare my pay with others? well at least i have a job now, u on the other hand don't even have one and if u do, u'll be asking help from ur parents and the sad part is u are still staying with ur parents so fuck u!

At least I have the drive to be better and well I get to learn other stuff than civil and what makes u think that qs is not part of civil engineering? If not then why in the world did we take that subject before.

So to all of u out there, don't even think of comparing me with others because mulut aku nang akan laser gila babi mun ko ngegeh depan aku.

ps: Ur mom bought u coach handbag and ur dad paid ur trip to...........for ur graduation present, ada ku kisah? Pls lah...mun mok compare my present and urs, that's nothing coz my parents is giving me a WEDDING and yet I did not say anything about it. So how much would u think that is? My pelamin cost more than ur coach HAHA

I hate hate hate when ppl brag to my face and think that I will respect and even more wants to be friend with them. Puhleez~

The result for the interview

I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wish the bf is here so that we can celebrate it together. I am so grateful and happy because this job is based on my own effort. No cable, no nothing plus i'm working for a chinese company =)) On top of that, the office is soOOoooo near to the bf's office! His in sunway and I'm gonna be in USJ! Definitely a bonus for us to find a house =))

So next friday i'll be working as a QS instead of a civil engineer and i'll be working with pipes. Daddy said it's funny how the bf and I both are gonna deal with pipes.

I can officially say that this is going to be the last week for me to be a couch potato a.k.a PENGANGGURAN..HIHI..

my bf loves me :p

The bf just called and he sound so pissed with work with some asshole at work.

So he called meeeeee to make him feel better. I am superduper happy that the person he wants to talk to about his day is me and i have successfully be a good listener coz usually i'm not. well neither of us are..

i haven't got the result yet. this is annoying

I'm happy to hear my mom's voice

Mommy called and made my day =) She updated me on what she have been up too and I was sooOOOooo happy listening to her voice. She's planning to make the bunga telur at the moment and she sound excited. How I wish I'm there with her so that we can do it together and talk non stop about life and gossip. Oh how I miss doing the mother-daughter bonding session. She was being silly just now about the shop called "bunga katai". We had this stupid joke not long time ago about the shop and we always made fun of the advertisement on the radio. She paid a visit to the shop a few days ago with my dad and how surprised she was when she got into the shop. She said that the shop was fugly from the outside but magical on the inside. It was wonderful and she felt like a kid in a candy store. I just smile throughout the conversation because I can just imagine how my mom would speak in front of me. I'm forever grateful to my mom for helping me prepare for the wedding. If I can pick my bridesmaid, it would definitely be my mom.


So here's the update of my boring life...
I haven't been out the whole day and I feel like my butt is stuck on this floor. Whatever business I wanted to do, I'll get it done either by my phone or laptop and if I'm too lazy then I'll just forget about it. See how irresponsible I am..hahah NOT!

- I have called the company that interviewed me last monday and they say that they will give me a call at 4.30pm for the result. The funny thing is they remember me as SOFIA! Well that's quite a typical name for chinese and I love it..hahah
- I have book a place for our kursus kahwin through sms (so easy kan sekarang!) but i'm gonna need to call them tomorrow to confirm it cause their line has been busy the whole day!
- I have called FICON SDN BHD to arrange the date for my interview =) I will call them again in 3 days if they don't call me back in anytime soon.

The only thing that I didn't do is to hand in my resume to HSSI HQ because I feel like I should just email it to them. I've applied through jobstreet but I feel like I should attach my certs to it too so i guess emailing it to them is as good as sending the resume by hand. What do you think?

Oh and one more thing is I haven't had a proper meal since last night so I guess I should go out later to buy nasi ayam padang...yummyyy =)


That's all from me folks...
wish me luck at 4.30pm...

Boring life

I wish I have interesting stories to tell but I don't so i'll just continue watching movies in my laptop..

the only way now is going UP

When i first came here..it was downhill for me. I feel so depress, scared and alone all at the same time. I feel like a beggar who are seeking for attention from the bf and friends but things change on the next day. I felt a lot better after showering and watching a movie.

I went for the interview yesterday and it went well. I will only know the result tomorrow. I don't want to put my hopes high since I know there is thousands of competitor that I need to beat.

Anyway..
Today, i'm going to apply as many position that i can have and look for a place to do my kursus kahwin by the end of the month and also look for a house to rent next month...

toodles~~~~

first day in kl

I'm about to go to sleep but before i do let me post a blog for my biggest stalker, none other than the fiance.

I left kch around 2pm and safely arrived in kl around 4. Then I took a taxi to shah alam to take my car from the bf's house. When I was driving to upm, I did a lot of thinking about my life and i try to instill positive words in my mind.

When I got to upm, i was soooOoo happy to see a familiar face and that would be none other than miss jamie. We went to mines for dinner and afterwards to mamak stall next to south city.

tomorrow i'll be going to look for the place to interview on monday.

stay tune for tomorrow.

nite2 folks....

bye bye kuching

prepare to be homesick

life is scary

I just finished watching transformers and my review would be it feels like watching ultraman. I dont like it as much as the previous movies. well that is my say...

pritti left and i feel a bit down when i was driving back so i called mira for karaoke but we went to watch movies instead.

i miss the bf so badly right now. honestly, i am petrified about going back. i dont feel ready to face the reality...

One bf gone, another one coming...

hey there

i'm blogging through my phone because pritti is using my laptop. yes you're right P.R.I.T.T.I aka best friend is in kuching, sitting on my bed and playing with my laptop! She's coming here just to visit yours truly...HAHA SUPER HAPPY GILAK!

btw the boyfriend just left hence the title for this post.

We've been going to soooOooOoo many places for this two days and I had fun being both the tour guide and tourist. It so nice to discover my own hometown but sadly we couldn't do so many things due to time constraint and weather.

As promised to the bf, this is what i have been up to:

27.06.2011
Picked up PRITTI at the airport at noon
Hunting for the wedding dress with aron,japot and pritti!
Family meeting on wedding on that night

28.06.2011
Lunch at sarawak club
Shopping mall hopping since it was raining and by the end of the day $$$$ is gone
Lepak at little lebanon. i love this place. the ambience is just great!

29.06.2011
Watch cultural show at cultural village. The org ulu is super cuteeeee...jgn jeles~ hahah
lunch at tun jugah
boat ride along the river. (i slept half way coz it was breezy and i feel like i was on the rocking chair)
buying cake lapis at the other side of the river (boyan)
another boat ride back to where we park and we stop at mcD for ice cream and bata for sandals.
Next stop is condom house at mjc. Didn't find what i'm looking for...hahaha

and tonight we're going to kubah ria for dinner and little lebanon for chilling.


Next post will be fill with pictures so stay tune...

Tired

Before he left u know what did we do?

FIGHT!


I'm so fed up and tired so i'll just sleep on it. I have tried to pull myself together for the past few weeks and now i just want to let loose.

Pritti is coming tomorrow so i'm looking forward on that! Cant wait to chill and shisha-ing with u!

Update!!! woot..woootttt

This is the 123456789 times I've been trying to upload this and if this doesn't come out later then so be it. I'm so fed up with my laptop. I think it's time to reformat. It's so critical right now..argh annoyying.

I've been busy with family and wedding stuff so let's start with the update. 

My niece, hani just turn two last sunday =) She was very happy that day and wasn't being congek at all. This time around, I can really see a big change in her. She is more cheerful and I even can carry her around. But of course I need to bribe her before that. 

Look how happy she is and the best thing is she doesn't poke her cake like other kids do!

Posing with their grandmother

Erika looks like a unicorn by the end of the day

Today I woke up with a bad tummy ache and it drives me nuts and I wasn't the only one having it, my dad too. After settling my shit business, I went out with my parents to buy table lamp and ceiling lamp for my room. It's really gorgous. I'll post it in my other blog when I rajin. Blogspot is being annoying at the moment so I guess updating one blog is enough for tonight. Then, we went to kedai chuan to look for my locket =) It's actually my ehem ehem present =)))))) I'm so happy that I got what I wanted eventhough daddy changed his mind about buying it after he bought my bedroom set. There's no words to describe my happiness right now.


ps: If you think I'm spoil and wasting my parents money, then SCREW YOU cause my life has nothing to do with yours so BACK OFF!

This is how she looks like from school

ehem ehem present =)