Alhamdulillah, I am a muslim :)

Assalamualaikum wbt dear reader,

It's been a while since I last did this kind of introduction.

I am in awe right now after reading the quran translation. I feel so ashamed for even questioning whether or not Allah exist. Why am I born a muslim. Why am I required to cover my aurat and why is it so many rules in my religion.

The more I read the quran, the more it make sense to me. It makes me feel like this so called rules are not boundary and restriction of me having fun but it's actually a way of living that will benefit me in the after life which is eternal. Why must I sacrifice the hereafter for this temporary life. We know that this world is messed up and there are so many mean people in this world and yet we want to be in this clique. Does that even make sense to you? No right...

I feel blessed that I am among the chosen one to be born a muslim and I am forever greatful for the hidayah that has been given to me. MasyaAllah, Subhanalllah, Alhamdulillah..

My tears couldn't stop rolling when I was reading surah Al-Anbiya. Especially ayat 35 and definitely 92!!!! There's a lot of hidden and undiscovered secret in it which I can sense by reading it.

Out of all the book that i have read, Quran is the best to date. I don't mean to be cliche here but there's a lot of interesting stories in there. Before this, I always listen on the stories about nabi isa as. rasulullah saw. daud as. from our teachers, friends or when we listen to other ppl's conversation but reading it first hand from quran is different.

I reckon that everyone should read the quran regardless your colour and religion. I mean what do u have to lose? I want to read so many books..bible, buddha scripture, jew's book which i forgot wat it's called and so on. All of this has been mentioned in the quran so I want to read it as well.

Subhanallah...thank you Allah for all the blessing that you have given me. I pray that all of u will be given hidayah and guidance frm Allah swt.


May all of us meet in jannah (paradise)...insyaAllah

Assalamualaikum wbt.

THE SILENCE

If only bf is here tonight...

I would be excited on going back
I wouldn't dread about my lonely weekend
I would drive as fast as I can to reach home
I would rush to take a shower and be ready in 15 mins for our date tonight

But he's not here
And I have the view of a wardrobe wreck and a small lawn that hasn't been mowed for at least a month.

This my life exactly two months before my wedding. Single life is boring when u don't have family or friends around you. I guess this is the silent before the big MESS i'm gonna get myself into. I'll just pamper myself this weekend. Perhaps going for a massage or spa....that would be nice but that also means $$$$ or maybe i can just do a little grooming to myself. my face is full of bushes. I can't even bear looking at myself in the mirror.

The MESS will start next week coz

*drum roll please*

I WILL BE MOVING TO MY NEW HOUSE NEXT SATURDAY! And the best thing is I won't be working! So I can clean and make it homeyyyyy!

Things to buy:
glass and floor cleaner
mop, broom, toilet brush, dust pan
candle
bed and wardrobe (for this i'll have to wait for the dearest to come back from brunei)
oh and window treatment!

The following MESS would be......my graduation and my parents+ika are coming and they would be staying with me! A lot of shopping will be done when they're here...woohooo


FINAL MESS WOULD BE THE WEDDING
I would be flying back for only 3 days to do the last minute preparation...oh dear...

Bliss

I am blogging from the toilet because that is the only free time I have nowadays.

I can't believe that I have been working for almost two months. All I can say is I'm loving every minute of it. I have always wanted to be like alia(proud duck's cousin) because she is very passionate with her job(i read her blog that's how i know) and I pray that some day I'll be like that too when I was in Uni. Well I guess my dream came true cause I love the roller coaster ride of my job.

Yes some people complain that I work for long hours and the jam that I have to go through twice a day but it's worth it.

In 10 more days, i'll be moving in to my new house!!!!!!! I'm excited that i'm gonna have a couch to seat and watching tv at the same time. Coz now I sleep, eat and watch movies using my phone on my mattress! Sad isn't it?

Btw the bf is working in brunei so I guess i'll work this weekend coz there's ntg much to do...


Okay my poop is done...

tata..

First big blow

I woke up today from mira's phone call. She's in kk right now for training. How cool is that! I am sooooo happy for her!

Life has not been treating kind for the past few days. Problems keep arising and it's a bit overwhelming for me. We had a HUGE fight on the night when we did our first house visiting and I seriously thought that it's going to be over. That is the first big blow for us. I glad that we came to our senses and made up.

Today, I can say that I am truly happy. I have.found our new home and I'll be moving in next month. I can't help from feeling excited. I can't wait to decorate the house. Feel free to drop by when u're in town!

fuck!

Babi babi babi

I so fucking hate this feeling. All I want is to have some fucking quality time together. That's all.


Fucker! Plus i am so fucking mad conow the mother and sis read my blog ao i cant fucking curse in my own fucking blog.

So now..i am going to fucking shut this whole down and i can only fucking reminisce the memories of what I have left in my head.

Fuck!