Tanamera Post Natal Care Set

My post natal care set has just arrived. Dear husband went to concorde today to buy it! He doesn't believe in online shopping. I'm soooo excited abt it! I have done heaps of research on which post natal care set is best for me and tanamera fits the best. It's good for mommy who would like to breastfeed their child and it's very simple. All you have to do is drink the herbal tea for 14 days and then your done! It might be slightly expensive than other care set but i know myself. I won't have the determination to gulp all the capsule or herb drinks few times a day for 40/60 consecutive days.

Here are some photos!

I am much cooler than u

Note to self:

No matter how tired or crappy I feel that day, I MUST drive myself to work. NO EXCUSE!!

Last day in kch

I have a few hours left in kch and i'm rushing here and there to get things done.

1. Attend zhuleikha's wedding.
2. Change the car modulator at spring
3. Buy sotong merah at hopoh
4. Bring our hopefully dry clothes from sepul's place.

Cun juak aritok hari mendung so there's no way for our clothes kerong but thank god my in law have the drier so we just chuck our clothes in the drier.

Btw ika look soooo gorgous today. I'm so touched that she still remembers me. We're only close during primary school and never kept in touch after that but sadly i look twice her size.

Rs mok jerit, nangis suma ad. Mok luah perasaan tok tp x blh kelak berdosa bukak aib org. Sedih...ya jak dpt dipadah. Ego mala jak paksa ngkah ke tepi sbb mun x mengalah, sampei bila2 pun akan bermasam muka. Pregnant tok nang mala nangis ajak2. Hati tok sik tauk lah gne nya blh thn lamak2 tok.

Sik mampu mok tgk muka sapa2 nektok. Happy gilak dpt ngeram dlm bilit sorg2. Rindu ms zaman dolok. Diam dlm dunia dikpun dlm bilit..

Marriage is hardcore. It's not always sunny every day. When it does, things are easy. The one that we should be concern of is during rainy days. That are the times when you feel like "i can't deal with this stuff". "Where is the escape route".

Most of the time it can be both sunny and rainy.

But at the moment, it's a gloomy day for me. I pray that i am given the strength to be strong.

Paknek

It's the 3rd of syawal today!

It's been a crazy ride so far. Paknek got his second stroke yesterday at noon and i was told this morning that he is going to be discharged today because apparently some ppl dh "pasrah". I feel like shaking them and ask them "what is wrong with you ppl. He is not dead yet! Let the dr do his job and we'll see how it goes frm there" argh annoying..

Btw i think i've gained double! Sooo scary mk nangga weighing scale. Now i just wanna eat all the time!

Sick and tired

I need to burst this soon before i go insane.

Remember the day when i just locked up in my room and i didn't wanna meet anyone, you said "............"

Now i want you to take a good look pf your advice and try to apply it.

All this time, i have tried my very best to be the best. You on the other hand just got lucky coz you don't have to try since you are well liked from the very beginning. But it doesnt mean that you can take things for granted.

I will just keep quiet from no on. I guess you're happier when i stop nagging.

I am so tired of being tired! Ya Allah pls give me strength for all these

Last day of ramadhan 2012

Sukanya hati dpt tido n cuddle2 dgn suami. Bahagia tauk x!

This is my first raya as a wife :) insyaAllah next yr, i'll celebrate raya as a mommy.

I feel so blessed!

;(

I felt a sense of calmness after washing the toilet all by myself. It felt like a huge achievement because i did everything on my own without having to ask for help. Though the level of cleanliness is only satisfactory, i'm still proud of it.

Whenever i see things that are messy, it can trigger a bad aura inside me and if i wasn't in a good mood, that thing can just make me go berzerk. Even the smallest thing like seeing dirty sink can just make me go WTF!! So what i'll do is i'll just straight clean the things that need to be cleaned.

Today is just another bad day for me. Work sucks coz it's boring now. I'm thinking of going to consultancy so that i can learn back my design. Though the pay will be the same like now but at least i get to brush up my 'engineering' background. Developer is smth that i would like to do later but the pay is very attempting. As for oil and gas, i dont really favour much coz i know ntg abt it. The only thing that interest me is the pay and maybe the challenge ahead of me if i go in this line.

On pregnancy update:

I have been having gastric and heart burn everyday since monday. Up until now i have not fasted for four days. My back pain is a bit bearable since i have been sleeping on a foam mattress. Baby is growing bigger and bigger and moving very active in my belly.

There are a few things that bothers me at the moment but i dont know how to spell it out. All i can say is i'm hurt mentally and physically. At times like this, i really would like to remind myself how grateful i should be because there are many people out there whose not as fortunate as me. Only Allah knows what is in my heart.

I'm gonna private my blog soon..

Life

I hate nagging. It makes me feel like i'm my mom. When i was young, i hate it when my mom nags and after some time i learnt her ways with things and i have become accustom to it. Hence, when i see things that is not in their original place, i will nag.

I feel sorry for ze husband having the kind of wife that always nag. And having a kid later on, it will be messy and honestly i don't know how i'm gonna cope up with cleaning all the mess.

On other story, i have been coming to work late for the past few weeks. I have no desire to go to work. My mind is always elsewhere when i'm at the office. I dont get the satisfaction that i used to feel before. At the moment, i'm working on a tender for the new branch for MMU. Although it's a tough tender, i dont have the drive to do my work. All think or care about is becoming a mom and having to spend time at home with my daughter. I even think about quitting my job and find a job that is more flexible. I miss doong charity work. I miss working late for an event. I miss being passionate about something. Now my life is just -___-

Sad isn't it? Well this is one of the phase in my journey...

Btw i'm just 24...

31 weeks

Wah lmk dh x update blog tok...

Alhamdulillah..so far puasa ok. I only break fast twice during the first week o ramadhan. My tummy wasn't used to it so sakit peruttttt jak. But now alhamdulillah, things are going smoothly so far.

I have a new DIY project coming up. I'm revamping my shawls. Nowadays, the shops are selling tudung at sky rocket price so i was thinking that might as well i just give it a try and do myself. I'll be buying some laces as well to do some patches. I am sooo excited! Wish me luckkkk

Update on my cupcake and being preggie:

My stretch mark is going haywire. It's creeping across my tummy, waist, thigh, boobies and even behind my knee. I get so frustrated whenever i see this. I wonder will I ever be beautiful after giving birth. Next issue is on sleep. My back, tummy and pelvic area hurts whenever i try to sleep. It is soooo hard to change from one side to one side! I will feel semput everytime i make this transition! Especially when i was lying flat on my bed. This transition needs to be in slow mode or else u feel like i will break my bones.

Now the baby part!
She is awesome awesome awesome. Moves rapidly inside my tummy and that made me feel good coz i know she's doing fine inside my tummy. Seems interested with my job coz everytime there is a discusion, she'll placed herself towards the surface of my tummy. As if she's listening too!

Last night before i sleep, she was acting up and giving me discomfort. Rupa2nya i forgot to read biography rasullulah to her! While reading the book, she moves again but this time it doesnt hurt. Instead, she seems interested. So after two pages (i was tired), we both fell asleep..

9 weeks to go!!!!

SIL

I think i'm such a good actress. It seems like i can cover my feelings very well. I feel so tormented having to keep this to myself coz i know the consequences of sharing this with you.

I give up on being nice. I am finally accepting that no matter what i do or say will not change anything. I know this will be hard for me at first. But later on, I'll get used to it.

Urgh..pls dont cry anymore ;(

;(

I dont know what I did wrong in the past that made you change. I have tried to be nice to you but it seems like no matter what I do, you will still dislike me. So what should I do?

I'm at the point where i'll just stop trying. I give up. This is who I am and the only person i know how to be is myself. If you dont want to talk to me, fine! If you want to ignore my presence whenever i'm around, fine! Fine fine fine!!!!!

I honestly feel like strangling you right now coz i hate how you make me feel bad about myself.

Baby story

2/8/2012

Mummy can feel your growing bigger and stronger. When mummy woke up thus morning, mummy was surprised that you have moved to the upper part of mummy's abdomen. It seems like baby wants to cuddle with mummy.

What a way to start the day!
:)