i had the weirdest dream, it's engineering related. I was in a building that is still in construction and i was with this 2 fellow. Both are guys and both are idiots, they're some sort of my superiors. There were some problems at the site and we were all in a huge mess and this 2 fellow make bad decisions one after another. What i can remember is the first guy went to the upper flow and threw some box to the lower floor to support some of the members of the building. He did that because the other guy removed some of the supporting steel frame at the upper floor and the stupid thing was he tried to remove an I beam with his force. like i said just now, it was a WEIRD DREAM. There i was yelling at them to stop doing all of that because the building might collapse. Earlier on, there were a lot of 12m steel I beam collapse due to the improper connection or something.
Finally they came to me and both were scared like hell and suddenly we can feel the building is imbalance. At first i was screaming at both of them for being stupid and then i decided to evacuate from the building before it collapse. Then i went to my mistress home to get some clothes change (YES I'M A DUDE IN THIS DREAM!) and went straight back home to meet my wife and have dinner with her family. During the dinner, there were a large KABOOOMMMM and the story went to the news. I got a text from those idiots saying that they should take the blame for everything because i'm still young and new to this field and there's more that i can achieve.
if they are so experienced, why are they so dumb?
Monday, August 30, 2010
i just want to clear some things out
sometimes i'm full of angst and sometimes i'm full of love. i'm a very unpredictable person that can love you and hate you all at the same time. i may look cold to some people and they might think that i am unapproachable but once i get to know u, you'll know that i am exuberant and definitely LOUD. Through out my life, i've met all sorts of people. Some are loyal and can be trusted and some are full of shit. I'm grateful to Allah for everything that had happened to me in this life, be it whether good or bad. I know i complain a lot and you can read it from my blog but i usually update whenever i'm feeling bitter because i feel like i can express my feelings in my blog and there's no one to judge. Well i know there's someone out there reading my blog but stillll it's not like you can say anything..hahah..at least not anymore.
During my teenage years, i feel like i know everything. i feel like i've gone through a lot and there's nothing that can break me because i'm tough. Even if i'm not, i'll act like one. But now at the age of 22 and soon to be the wife of the fiance (insyaAllah), i know that i still have long way to go. There's still so many things to achieve in this life as well as the afterlife. I hope that i can be a good wife and a good mother to my children.
I know there's people out there whose trying to make my life miserable (u know who u are and i know u're reading my blog). My words may be unkind but i don't think i can take it back because i can never see you the same like before even if i want to. Things are different now and i hope you can respect that. It's better that we live in our separate life and i want you to be happy and i'll pray for your success in your future undertaking. I might smile or say hi to you if we meet at the street but if you ignore it, then i'll take it as it is. Always know that our memories will never be forgotten until the day I die. As for now, we have to live the path that we've chosen.
OK enough with the melodramatic moment...
off to watch merlin season 2 =)
i miss you syg. sik sbr mok skype-ing with you!
During my teenage years, i feel like i know everything. i feel like i've gone through a lot and there's nothing that can break me because i'm tough. Even if i'm not, i'll act like one. But now at the age of 22 and soon to be the wife of the fiance (insyaAllah), i know that i still have long way to go. There's still so many things to achieve in this life as well as the afterlife. I hope that i can be a good wife and a good mother to my children.
I know there's people out there whose trying to make my life miserable (u know who u are and i know u're reading my blog). My words may be unkind but i don't think i can take it back because i can never see you the same like before even if i want to. Things are different now and i hope you can respect that. It's better that we live in our separate life and i want you to be happy and i'll pray for your success in your future undertaking. I might smile or say hi to you if we meet at the street but if you ignore it, then i'll take it as it is. Always know that our memories will never be forgotten until the day I die. As for now, we have to live the path that we've chosen.
OK enough with the melodramatic moment...
off to watch merlin season 2 =)
i miss you syg. sik sbr mok skype-ing with you!
Thursday, August 26, 2010
sleepy sleepy me
i felt tired the moment i wake up. i feel tired all the time and i get tired easily nowadays. is this the signs of me aging??OH NO!
today i slept most of the time in class and i think my economy lecturer knows me very well by now. the student that always sleep in class. it's not like i purposely sleep during her lecture. i just couldn't stand the long hours listening. i thought i was bad enough when i slept 1 hour and 40 mins in my two hours traffic analysis lecture. rupa2nya...today was even worst. i felt sleepy after 8 bloody minutes listening to the lecture. dah lah i dtg half an hour late as usual. yarabiiiiiii...i can sleep even when i din lean on the chair. i can just be static sitting in the FIRST ROW! once in a while i'll wake up and try to listen but a few seconds later i'll be in my dreamland again.
suddenly she gave us a quiz becoz she sees many of us are either sleeping or doing some other work (mind you, we are civil engineering studenst so this is something that u can expect to happen when we go to economy class). buttttt miraculously i can anwer all of the questions. i did get some help from mira for the last part and guess what? she sleeps tooo in the class, well she was sitting next to me. we were being so jolly happy and everyone else copied our answer sheet. well the lecturer didn't mind cause she just wanted us to wake up from our sleep.
i miss the bf like crazy!
today i slept most of the time in class and i think my economy lecturer knows me very well by now. the student that always sleep in class. it's not like i purposely sleep during her lecture. i just couldn't stand the long hours listening. i thought i was bad enough when i slept 1 hour and 40 mins in my two hours traffic analysis lecture. rupa2nya...today was even worst. i felt sleepy after 8 bloody minutes listening to the lecture. dah lah i dtg half an hour late as usual. yarabiiiiiii...i can sleep even when i din lean on the chair. i can just be static sitting in the FIRST ROW! once in a while i'll wake up and try to listen but a few seconds later i'll be in my dreamland again.
suddenly she gave us a quiz becoz she sees many of us are either sleeping or doing some other work (mind you, we are civil engineering studenst so this is something that u can expect to happen when we go to economy class). buttttt miraculously i can anwer all of the questions. i did get some help from mira for the last part and guess what? she sleeps tooo in the class, well she was sitting next to me. we were being so jolly happy and everyone else copied our answer sheet. well the lecturer didn't mind cause she just wanted us to wake up from our sleep.
i miss the bf like crazy!
Sunday, August 22, 2010
This is how i feel right now
"When You're Gone"
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were,
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
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Saturday, August 21, 2010
Engineering versus management
Something that i came across when i was doing some research on my assignment.
A man in a hot air balloon realized he was lost. He reduced altitude and spotted a woman below. He descended a bit more and shouted,
"Excuse me, can you help me? I promised a friend I would meet him an hour ago, but I don't know where I am." The woman below replied, "You're in a hot air balloon hovering approximately 30 feet above the ground. You're between 40 and 41 degrees north latitude and between 59 and 60 degrees west longitude."
"You must be an engineer," said the balloonist.
"I am," replied the woman, "How did you know?"
"Well," answered the balloonist, "everything you told me is, technically correct, but I've no idea what to make of your information, and the fact is I'm still lost. Frankly, you've not been much help at all. If anything, you've delayed my trip."
The woman below responded, "You must be in Management."
"I am," replied the balloonist, "but how did you know?"
"Well," said the woman, "you don't know where you are or where you're going. You have risen to where you are due to a large quantity of hot air. You made a promise which you've no idea how to keep, and you expect people beneath you to solve your problems. The fact is you are in exactly the same position you were
in before we met, but now, somehow, it's my fault."
A man in a hot air balloon realized he was lost. He reduced altitude and spotted a woman below. He descended a bit more and shouted,
"Excuse me, can you help me? I promised a friend I would meet him an hour ago, but I don't know where I am." The woman below replied, "You're in a hot air balloon hovering approximately 30 feet above the ground. You're between 40 and 41 degrees north latitude and between 59 and 60 degrees west longitude."
"You must be an engineer," said the balloonist.
"I am," replied the woman, "How did you know?"
"Well," answered the balloonist, "everything you told me is, technically correct, but I've no idea what to make of your information, and the fact is I'm still lost. Frankly, you've not been much help at all. If anything, you've delayed my trip."
The woman below responded, "You must be in Management."
"I am," replied the balloonist, "but how did you know?"
"Well," said the woman, "you don't know where you are or where you're going. You have risen to where you are due to a large quantity of hot air. You made a promise which you've no idea how to keep, and you expect people beneath you to solve your problems. The fact is you are in exactly the same position you were
in before we met, but now, somehow, it's my fault."
Friday, August 20, 2010
mommy rocks!
mommy just told me something about someone..hahah can't wait to go back and hear the whole story. one thing i love about my family is no matter how twisted things can be sometimes, we will always have each other's back during the hard times and support each other till the end. love ya til tit bits..
there's going to be Hassan Manan's family gathering again this raya but this time it's going to be on the 3rd day of raya. That's the only thing i know as i am not involve in anything. i hope it's going to be as much fun like last time. *finger crossed*
ps: next weekend make yourself free for me coz we're going shopping and yes we'll be going to sg wang and times square too and i'll be your shop assistant for the day =D dgn syarat cia mek makan..hahahha..
there's going to be Hassan Manan's family gathering again this raya but this time it's going to be on the 3rd day of raya. That's the only thing i know as i am not involve in anything. i hope it's going to be as much fun like last time. *finger crossed*
ps: next weekend make yourself free for me coz we're going shopping and yes we'll be going to sg wang and times square too and i'll be your shop assistant for the day =D dgn syarat cia mek makan..hahahha..
pls take care of yourself for me...
The bf just left to south africa =( i was trying to be cool for the past 2 weeks but i broke down last night and again this morning. i'm still not use to him leaving me every few months. Although this time he'll just be away for a month but stilllllll raya without him is going to be different and this time i'm coming back for 2 bloody weeks. There's not going to be any food scavenging with him at the bazaar, baby sitting erika and house visiting with him.
THIS IS SOOO SAD!
ok think positive...at least u wont be a boring couple who meets up every day and do everything together and ended up having nothing to talk about anymore because u see him EVERYDAY rite??? plus u'll get more present from him =) ok...*positive mode*
THIS IS SOOO SAD!
ok think positive...at least u wont be a boring couple who meets up every day and do everything together and ended up having nothing to talk about anymore because u see him EVERYDAY rite??? plus u'll get more present from him =) ok...*positive mode*
class trip =D
This is the longgg overdueeee pictures taken during our class bbq at port dickson. This whole thing was donee way beforeee my hectic week. Just let the picture speaks for itself. Enjoy~
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| bbq team~~ |
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| game time! |
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| second game! AEIOU |
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| this is what happen when u get caught! |
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| jolly happy me =D |
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| my classmates =) |
Thursday, August 19, 2010
why do u have to leave?
i just sat the last paper for this week. i can't believed i survived this torturous week. Having 6 papers is not an easy job. Now i have tonnes of clothes to fold, books and papers everywhere but i think i'm just gonna sleep and leave all of it untouched. i'm too tired to even move(ok fine i'm exaggerating).
i'm gonna meet up with the bf soon =)
i'm gonna meet up with the bf soon =)
Monday, August 16, 2010
Sunday, August 15, 2010
douche on the net
i'm done with my first paper and as usual, i have the insecurity inside me whether i did well or not.
anywhooss...i checked my email and i got a few msgs from the people of this certain website. there was a long story on why i joined the website. The thing is these people text me and tell me how interesting my profile is and they want to get to know me and stuff but all i have on my profile is my fake name and there's ntg else. oh yea..my fake age and location but that's it. so what is so interesting about my profile? what i'm trying to say here is be careful on the infomation that you're going to give to the strangers on the net. i find so many of my peers are giving their numbers or even their address to the people that they barely know. i mean c'monnn..are you THAT DESPERATE??
This is some of the abstract
2010 Jul 22 21:59
hey there. i'm just wondering. how do u find my profile to be so cute? because i have nothing on my profile except for my name. care to explain?
2010 Jul 24 07:49
Thanks for your mail, am glad to hear from you.it will very nice we to start communicating and know what our heavenly father have for us in future for his glory. I will like you to introduce yourself to me and your email address so we can chat with you online through yahoo messenger. I will like this to based in truth and fear of God, may you be blessed. I'm a new person in this site but i know here are so many good things God have special for us in future . Please tell me more about yourself ?, I will do the same , you sound so great in your profile I'm interesting. feel free to email me xxxxxx@yahoo.com , you can also drop your email address, I hope to hear from you soon. God bless and have a nice day. Thanks
anywhooss...i checked my email and i got a few msgs from the people of this certain website. there was a long story on why i joined the website. The thing is these people text me and tell me how interesting my profile is and they want to get to know me and stuff but all i have on my profile is my fake name and there's ntg else. oh yea..my fake age and location but that's it. so what is so interesting about my profile? what i'm trying to say here is be careful on the infomation that you're going to give to the strangers on the net. i find so many of my peers are giving their numbers or even their address to the people that they barely know. i mean c'monnn..are you THAT DESPERATE??
This is some of the abstract
2010 Jul 22 21:59
hey there. i'm just wondering. how do u find my profile to be so cute? because i have nothing on my profile except for my name. care to explain?
2010 Jul 24 07:49
Thanks for your mail, am glad to hear from you.it will very nice we to start communicating and know what our heavenly father have for us in future for his glory. I will like you to introduce yourself to me and your email address so we can chat with you online through yahoo messenger. I will like this to based in truth and fear of God, may you be blessed. I'm a new person in this site but i know here are so many good things God have special for us in future . Please tell me more about yourself ?, I will do the same , you sound so great in your profile I'm interesting. feel free to email me xxxxxx@yahoo.com , you can also drop your email address, I hope to hear from you soon. God bless and have a nice day. Thanks
Friday, August 13, 2010
i miss you MAY N PRITTI!!!
i was supposed to be doing my engineering and society assignment but i ended up reading ALL the post from my dear friend, May aka SAPO. i miss her and also pritti so much! it's been so long since the last time i see both of you. Well they were supposed to come this week but there were so many things that need to be done and i can't just leap out and forget about it. how i wish i could just forget about the work and make plans with you both. it's sad how i can't find any pics of us back then. well, back then i wasn't wearing any hijab so it's not like i can't post the pics right?
you're leaving soon =(
i'm feeling a tad sick last night but after drowning myself into different type of stuffs i can find from the pharmacy, now i'm feeling much better. well it's not 100% ok but at least i can still wake up for my sahur. speaking of which, i better perform my subuh prayer now before it's too late..
i can't wait to see you =D
i can't wait to see you =D
Thursday, August 12, 2010
3rd Ramadhan =)
i get to meet the bf last night =D
wish me luck for the LI presentation at 9am. oh yea..we're doing the site survey today!
wish me luck for the LI presentation at 9am. oh yea..we're doing the site survey today!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
save me
it's 10pm and i'm having dinner while chatting with my groupmate on the proposal for our project. i'm quite worried that i cannot cope up with my work load. since it's only the 5th week of my semester and my work is piling up like the mount kinabalu so imagine how's it gonna be by the end of the semester...sigh
yeay it's ramadhan =)
assalamualaikum
i'm so tired and it's only 8.22pm. Today is such a long day and there are tonnes of work to do.
wednesday: meeting up with "the team"...haha that's what dr. helmi calls it
friday: submit proposal for highway project and industrial training presentation and site survey.
saturday: AKU MOK DATING RITOK
next week
monday: design 2 test, submit engineering society assignment
wednesday: economy and finance test. FYI this is two diff subject.
Friday: Highway test
i should have gone crazy by now but i'm actually having fun. For instance today, i went out for two hours between my break and i bought one nice shirt plus i get to meet the bf =D i teman him shopped with the little brothers.
okay off to shower and dinner. hopefully later on i'll finish up some of the work...
daaaa
i'm so tired and it's only 8.22pm. Today is such a long day and there are tonnes of work to do.
wednesday: meeting up with "the team"...haha that's what dr. helmi calls it
friday: submit proposal for highway project and industrial training presentation and site survey.
saturday: AKU MOK DATING RITOK
next week
monday: design 2 test, submit engineering society assignment
wednesday: economy and finance test. FYI this is two diff subject.
Friday: Highway test
i should have gone crazy by now but i'm actually having fun. For instance today, i went out for two hours between my break and i bought one nice shirt plus i get to meet the bf =D i teman him shopped with the little brothers.
okay off to shower and dinner. hopefully later on i'll finish up some of the work...
daaaa
Monday, August 9, 2010
i miss the bf
12.30am- finally went to bed
2.30am: Frigging fire drill
4.30am: Trying to force myself to sleep AGAIN
8.10am: Had a panic attack because design class starts at 8am and the lecturer just gave me a comment when I came in late for 10 minutes yesterday!
And now I’m in the IT room because I THOUGHT I HAVE CLASS AT BRIDGE DESIGN CLASS AT 10AM rupa2nya I read my timetable wrongly!!!
But on the brighter side, I managed to do one of my procrastinated works. Two thumbs up ;)
Sunday, August 1, 2010
hatred moments
i feel like i'm never good enough for u. i know i have my tantrum but that doesn't mean that i don't love u. well, i hate that part about myself but i can't do anything about it. If there is anger management program, i would go. sometimes i feel like it's better for u to find someone else someone better than me. i know i always say that and it might come true, who knows. Just for the record, i would let u go if u can be happy with whoever that person is.
and to YOU
stop making me feel like an IDIOT. i am not your punching bag. if i lose my temper, trust me you will pray that u never know me. i will stranggle you with my bare hand. so stop calling or coming to me and treat me like a trash. the more i see your face the more i feel like kicking your tiny ass. so fuck off
and to YOU
stop making me feel like an IDIOT. i am not your punching bag. if i lose my temper, trust me you will pray that u never know me. i will stranggle you with my bare hand. so stop calling or coming to me and treat me like a trash. the more i see your face the more i feel like kicking your tiny ass. so fuck off
oi babi babi sekalian....iboh kaco aku ari tok
Out of all people, i expect you would understand. You were once in my place. i'm so fucking tired fighting with you and that's why i always give up. call me a quiter coz i guess that's what i am. why can't u be supportive and understanding?! is that too much to ask?
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