A song that speaks true to my heart

Sara Bareilles - King of Anything

Keep drinkin' coffee

Stare me down across the table

While I look outside

So many things I'd say if only I were able

But I just keep quiet

And count the cars that pass by

You've got opinions, man
We're all entitled to 'em

But I never asked

So let me thank you for time

And try to not waste any more of mine

Get out of here fast

I hate to break it to you babe

But I'm not drowning

There's no one here to save

Who cares if you disagree

You are not me

Who made you king of anything

So you dare tell me who to be

Who died

And made you king of anything

You sound so innocent
All full of good intent

You swear you know best

But you expect me to

Jump up on board with you

Ride off into your dellusional sunset

I'm not the one who's lost

With no direction oh

But you won't ever see

You're so busy makin' maps

With my name on them in all caps

You got the talkin' down just not the listening

And who cares if you disagree
You are not me

Who made you king of anything

So you dare tell me who to be

Who died

And made you king of anything

All my life

I've tried

To make everybody happy while I

Just hurt

And hide

Waitin' for someone to tell me it's my turn

To decide

Who cares if you disagree

You are not me

Who made you king of anything

So you dare tell me who to be

Who died

And made you king of anything

Who cares if you disagree

You are not me

Who made you king of anything

So you dare tell me who to be

Who died

And made you king of anything

Let me hold your crown, babe



Friends that made my day =)

It's been tiring this few days but nevertheless i had so much fun. This holiday is one of the best holiday i had, spending time with good friends and being silly is just wonderful. I had a second breakdown on the wedding about two nights ago, it's actually more like tears of relieved but i still cried my hearts out like there's no tomorrow.

So the update for the wedding for now are:
My room will be decided entirely by my mom (but i'll tell her what i want and don't want in my room)
The venue of the akad nikah depends on their preferences.

The reason i did that is because i am not going to be in kch the whole time and it is very expensive if i want to commute between kch and kl regularly so i think it will make everyone's life easy if they do it however way they want to. At least it would be less arguements and breakdown. (i hope) If you think that i'd be sad because what if my room turn into a disaster, you don't have to fret much because i am more looking forward to decorate my own house. In fact, i already found a nice ceiling lamp at tun jugah and i am going to buy it tomorrow for my future home. I know it's a bit too early but i'll start buying bit by bit so that i won't feel the burden to buy a lot of stuff later on.

nice kannn

It is pretty cheap and there was actually one more that is nice but the bf wants me to buy only one. I can be a bit greedy sometimes. Thank god i have the fiance to remind me to not being one.

And now...let the pic describe  how the rest of my day has been so far =)

celebrate mira's birthday =)
(less than 3 bebeh)

she received a lot of pressie that day..hahah..it's the thought that count bah...( self defense mode=P )



i heart books babe and this is such a STEALLLLLLL!



meet my bestfriend, ms star..kidding =P

ms cheryl =)

Trying to be twin but FAILED!

still fail!

playing dress up

There's more but it's in ira's  and jamie's camera..i'll update again tomorrow yea. Tonight's plan would be having  beef satay at koperkasa with none other than ira =)

Will i ever be a good cook?

i'm gonna cook kailan goreng belacan n i followed this recipe. Hopefully it'll taste like the one i always have in kl. Later on, i'm gonna meet up with Cheryl to celebrate her birthday but i haven't got her anything yet. dang!

Tomorrow i'll have a date with mira and maybe we can zumba before we leave?? hahah mok juak~~

I love the bf very much. He has been very supportive throughout the preparation of the wedding. Just bear with me dear..hihi.

i hate making decisions

i just had the first break down a couple of minutes ago. It was over the colour of my pelamin coz i ain't got any clue what colour do i want for my wedding. Thank god the bf was there to keep me sane and at the end of my break down, i felt kinda dumb because my wedding dress has nothing to do with the colour of my room since i'm gonna wear a gown instead of the traditional attire. pfft

tomorrow, i'm going out on my own to do some research...


nite2 folks..

wedding preparation- episode 1

It's not going be fine..EVERYTHING'S going to be fine. i keep on chanting those words since forever. this post is going to be rojak because that is how the state of my mind is at the moment. saya sangat pening dan risau dan nervous dan rasa ingin menghentak kepala ke dinding. omg! i knew all along that it's going to be a lot of work and things that i need to take care of but i never thought that everything needs my attention at one time. Byk benda saya perlu fikir dan bapa saya ingin jawapan secara cepat kalau dapat. (my dad wants the answer ASAP!) okay my BM SUCKS..screw you!

Here are the things that needs my attention:

1. Pintu
2. Bed+dressing table+side tables
3. Work station for my room (table+chair)
4. Reading corner (standing lamp and nice single seated sofa)
5. Mirror
7. Wedding dress
8. Invitation cards

As you can see, my top priority is ze DOOR instead of my wedding dress. I know it's weird and i can say that i haven't seen any bride to care about their door more than their wedding dress but that is what i have to do because the high minister wants to know what type of door do i want if i'm going to change it. So today, i'll be going to the hardware store to find the perfect door for my room.

Anyone wants to be my driver? just give me a call aite..

I've been in kuching for about a week already and i'm already feeling like i'm living in a bubble. There are so many things that i am not puas hati about and below are some of them.

I am SO FRUSTRATED with the shops in kuching! i have so many great ideas on what type of bed and side tables that i want but NOTHING came anywhere close. Everything is so typical and the same! It's like they came from the same factory but only have different names. I mean what's up with SWAROVSKI(i don't even care if i spell it wrongly!) people! Are you guys trying to be hugh heffner?? When i went to lorenzo, my jaw DROPPED when i look at those hidious beds. It looked cheap and FUGLY..period! please pray that i'll find a shop that won't sell those stereotypical stuff.*finger crossed*

I HATE DRIVING IN KUCHING! period!

Why men don't understand women

It sucks that the opposite sex always assume that the planning part depends entirely on us, women and when we get to the part where we want everything to be completely PERFECT, they will start thinking that we have become a twisted queen control madam and wish we can be simple minded n just go with the flow.

FYI it takes hell a lot of time and energy to plan on an event, what else to say the big day. So yes, we want it to be as perfect as possible so that it's worth all the time, energy and not forgetting money wasted. And yes we do look on the details and if something insignificant like pls fill in the blanks guys means that the world is going to end  real soon and i will sulk for maybe 10 mins? Tell me what's wrong with that. If you want us to be more sane and less uptight, why don't you try to switch places with us for a day. Go on decide on the theme, colour, arrangement and what not but this does not mean that you get to choose whatever that you have in your plate. Instead try to make it meaningful and memorable. HELL-O you wouldn't want to treat the big day like any other day right?? If your answer is yes then you can go to hell because you don't worth to be anyone's husband  in other words, good luck with finding a women to be your wife.

ps: this post has nothing to do with my future to be husband and me. He helped me a lot in the preparations. It's just a reminder for all the dudes who just don't give a damn to the wedding but still wants to get married. pfft!

i love you so so much syg!

I've been doing A LOT of research on my new bedroom and FINALLY i have found the concept and features that i love the most plus the best part is the high ministers did not complain much about it. Alhamdulillah. All i have to do now is to go out and look for the stuff that I need for my new room =) i hope they do have it in kuching. InsyaAllah..

it's the final countdown

i'm home and i'm looking for ideas for my new bedroom =)

Alhamdullilah

Alhamdulillah..today i finally got my exam result and i did pretty well. I can't believe i survived it. The schedule was hectic and my exam week was like a nightmare tp dengan berkat doa and usaha, i survived! Alhamdulillah..InsyaAllah I will work harder next semester. I just called daddy and i told him what i got and i can hear from his voice that he's happy =)

update on ze day:
The date and place in confirmed. Now, all i need is idea for ze day.

i feel like a rockstar!

My life is so packed right now and i feel sooOOooo bad for delaying my project. Mira, i'm very sorryyy but i will work my ass off and get it done ASAP! promise!

The bf picked me up around 1pm and all of us (the in laws + bf +I) went to watch Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra at KLCC and this is the first time i watch a real orchestra playing right in front of me and all i have to say is it was BEAUTIFUL.

Then, the bf+siblings and I went back home to perform asar prayer and then we went out again to Indah parade to shop for gundam.

The in laws has been busy buying stuff for the house and fixing the lights and what not, and honestly, i'm begining to like the house. I used to be afraid of going there because the place is quite dodgy but after we've cleared and cleaned the whole place, it was actually ain't that bad after all. Now i'm starting to imagine painting the house and making it more presentable =)

On my previous post about me not going back was not true after all...haha..in fact, i'm coming back at the end of the week! Ira called this morning and told me that she's coming back in 10 days so i booked my ticket straight away =) i can't wait to see her!

Next up:
tomorrow: auto show at pwtc, ice skating in sunway and maybe midvalley after that.
monday: fashion show =) i can't wait to see hana tajima's collection!

pls mark your calender for me =)

i am lost in the track of time and i was suprised to find out that tomorrow is going to be friday! One week passed without me realizing it. I am here to announce that i am not going back for the holiday because life is way more interesting here than back home..jk..my project progress is super slow (i have no one else to blame than myself..pfftt!!).

This is what i have been up to for the past couple of days:

tuesday: date with my other half =) and something else is going on in kch that i can't mention here. (hint: pakkepakkeboomboomboom)

wednesday: get to know on how to use ENVI4.7 and wash my car with mira =)
ps: do remind me to post some pics on this because i sooooo want to remember this moment when i'm out. It was so much fun!

today: pick up the in laws, running some errands with them, go to the ikea for the 163128792146x this month! finally dinner at padang with none other than my beautiful in laws+bf!

There's another thing that i loveeee doing this week. ZUMBA!!! i can honestly feel the difference in just 3 days. Go check it out!

diet+working out = new hobby

i never have any problem with my weight growing up as a child and i was completely comfortable being in my skin but when i hit 20, everything change.

All of that is going to change now so that i can look good for the big day =) *uber excited*

A simple twist in the end

Alhamdulillah..we've covered pretty much all our area for the project so it's worth all the trouble that we have to go through while doing it. As we all know(i think), i have this fear of crossing a road. So it is so unlikely of me to stand in the middle of a BUSY let me repeat BUSY t-junction just to get the coordinate of a point. But that's what i did! I guess i'd do anything for my project.

After wrapping up on the project, i went back rushing to get ready to meet the bf. It's been quite some time since we last met so last night we did some catching up and we discussed about the big day!

FYP: Day 1

Today i spend the whole day under the scorching sun and now my feet are bbq-ed and i can basically serve it on the table for you to eat. Now it's aching so bad so tonight i am going to dive in the pantry room(store)  to search for my shoe. I cannot do that to my feet EVER AGAIN! Hopefully tomorrow will be the last day for the field work.

-tired-