offshore again

I did not sleep well last night because mommy snored so loud and so does ika which is only 4 btw. Plus the baby at the house keeps crying every few hours.

Today we're going to do some serious shopping which i will talk about it in my other blog. Can't wait to see what's in store.

I miss bf very much. He's going offshore today in terengganu. He said it's going to be for 2 days but we both know it can go on for weeks. Let's just assume that we're not gonna meet til the end of the month.


I think I should write on how to be the traveller's wife: how to survive an off and on long distance relationship.

The truce..

Everything is better now. We talked about our problems during the anniversary dinner, although nothing is solved but at least i feel much better after everything is out in the open.

Daddy was surprised to hear that the bf is not going to be able to pick mommy up tomorrow at the airport. I guess i'll be driving alone.

4th Anniversary

I need to release this now before I cry in front of the public.

I don't know how to go on with this. It is so hard to find a time to be together and when we finally found one, the next thing you said is you'll be leaving again the next day.

As a normal human being, i broke down and cry. I felt like my nightmare is starting all over again. It's really cruel to give me false hope on having extra time together when you came back one day earlier.

I know it's not your fault and you're trying your best to give me all the time you have left. So do I. I tried so hard to put a happy face and not be moody but sometime I fail. It's so frustrating when we fight every time we meet up.

It made me feel 1000x worst than before because now I see myself as the person who doesn't bring out the best of you. I'm the person who always say the wrong thing at the wrong time and will make you pissed.


We're going to celebrate 4 years of anniversary tonight but none of us made the effort of trying to make it special. At this point, I just want to be on my bed and just sleep so that I can stop feeling terrible and dream of beautiful things. Call me selfish but I deserve to be selfish at least this once.

My heart is broken

This rollercoaster ride is taking its toll on me. Now i'm questioning myself whether I have the strength to be in this ride. I am starting to have doubts and I hate the feeling of getting left behind.

I think I should focus on getting a job and start devoting myself on that instead of this feeling

Malaysian Food Delicacy

The bf is coming home today! One day earlier than expected, meaning that I have extra half day to be with him! Syukur Alhamdulillah. As promised, these are the photos from morib, bagan lalang and sunway lagoon!


Morib Beach

Enjoying every bit of sotong bakar

Bagan Lalang

Camwhoring before maghrib prayer =)

In sarawak we call it ambal. Over here its pepahat but i always call it pelempang!

Sotong goreng tepung

The remarkable super tasty ikan bakar

10 minutes later...

Look at the gravy..it's heaven~

This is suppose to be udang bakar but I did not take the photo before..haha

Kompleks Mahasiswa UPM

Interview at CPC

 Sunway Lagoon

I look like parts of the mascot

The twins

That's not my real thigh! I was wearing harem dress ok...

Prairie Dog!! Super cute

Leopard cat. I want this for my pet!

Camwhoring while waiting for isyak

 Bangi (last night)

Kerabu sotong =)

The best tomyam ever! NO ONE can beat this tomyam..seriously

As you can see, I have been doing a lot of eating lately! Let us hope that the bf still recognize me this afternoon.

Oo right now I'm having domino's pizza...I am going to miss the food here when i go back =((

I don't need a friend who are full excuses

I just got into a huge fight with a friend. I was the one who started. It was after reading her text to one of my friends. Her msg was very rude and I was totally offended by it.

Then she started giving me what feels like a neverending text and in it was blaming everything towards other people. And the text afterwards were repetitions of her previous never ending text.

It comes to a point where i just laughed about it because whatever things that i predicted is going to be in the text was on the text. Clue? repetitions. So i stop replying because i just don't want my inbox to be full of repetitions.

I hate it when people just can't speak straight to the point and she thinks that she needs to explain every single thing. Little that she knows that "her explanation" is just HURTFUL.

Things that I wish she would understand:

Niat kawan ak nok sorg ya bait tp ko x pk? ko mok org jak pk psl kau. Ko complain psl aku compare relationship ak dgn kau maka aku padah in a very short sentence tp part ko compare bf ko dgn sepul nok panjang gila elaboration ya ko sik pk? ya mcm meludah di muka dikpun jak. U HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHATS GOING IN MY PERSONAL LIFE SO YOU BETTER SHUT YOUR PIE HOLE! Pasya why on earth would you talk shit about my friend with me. Ko pk aku akan support kau ka? That is one hell of a mistake! I have no respect left in you. If ko sik puas ati, tell it to her face not mine. Your elaboration bores me.

As you can see, i am very much pissed off with you and pls save your excuses@explanation to your beloved bf because i have no interest in listening to your REPETITIONS.

CPC Interview

i just got back from the interview. i went to 4 today and it all went fine. one of the interviewee said that she liked me but the only prob is i come from civil and not electrical. i kinda feel bumped because all of them wanted electrical, mechanical and even chemical. For what its worth, i had my experience and its all good. i know if i don't get that job today, Allah has plans for me and i'm sure its good. at least i know that i dont suck in interviews.

off to sleep...i'm super tired!

morib beach and bagan lalang beach

It's 1.31am but i can't sleep. Today has been great since the moment i woke up til now. I wa surrounded by friends and that took my mind off the bf most of the time.

Things that i have been up to today....
- watched pirates of the carribean. i like the movie but it's too long for me and sitting on the second row doesn't help either
-dressing up before going to the beach
-watched the beautiful scenery at morib beach and i had the best sotong bakar ever!
- dinner at bagan lalang beach. the food was superb and super cheap!

i'll post the pictures tomorrow aite...
off to zzzzz..


nite

7 days to go..

i woke up today with tears in my eyes because i know he's not here. He's working offshore which means that he can't be contacted at all. I feel a little bit guilty because i keep on complaining how he travels all the time. i'm afraid that i'm making him dislikes his job which i don't intend to because if it was me on the other line, i would be enjoying myself going around the world.

i'm trying to distract myself from missing the bf too much so i'll be joining jamie n dave watching pirates. i hope johnny depth can take my mind off the bf. plus afterwards, i'll be going to bagan lalang to eat seafood n play kites.

Another wedding blog annoucement!

This is the link to my new wedding blog. I hate blogging at wordpress and i have no intention in going back there.

Missing person!!!

If you see this guy, please return him to me or at least tell him that his gf/fiancee/love of his life miss him so much. I keep on telling myself one more week. One more week before i see you.

Btw wordpress is really pissing me off right now and i'm thinking of switching to blogspot. Kenapa anda sangat lembab@lembap!!!! urgh!

i know u read my blog so this post is for u

i just found out that she blocked me from fb. i do feel the lurch deep in my heart but somehow it made me relieved. at least now i know that she really wants nothing to do with me and i know for real that she's out of my life for good.

i do expect this to happen because we did not end it well. you botched urself into my life in a sudden and then start comparing my fiance to ur bf when u know ntg abt him and then u betrayed me again for the second time by telling ur bf abt my life which proves to me that u can't be trusted anymore.

thank you for giving me the strength not to care abt u anymore. The only piece of advice i can give u is being engaged takes a lot of patience because without it you can't go through the challenges ahead of you.


on sarcassm notes..
don't u think it's ironic when ur bf gave me a long text on the problems with my engagement but now u're having one when u guys were just engaged for a few months? talking is easy but doing it is the other thing. welcome to the life of being engaged. it's not as easy as u think...

another lonely weekend

i just wrote a long heart rendering post on my bf going outstation to brunei tp this phone decided to ignore the post and made me write once again with less melodramatic. well at least that is what i want to believe in or else why would it not be published right?

anywhooss the bf just left and we didn't have the chance to meet up before he left because we were both busy. we talked on the phone for abt 20 mins before he boards. i can't believe i survived not spending time with him 3 weekends in a row!

tomorrow i'm planning on going to jln tar with mira, aniyah n salwa. hopefully i can find superb bargain tomorrow. i'll post the details on the shopping tomorrow in my other blog...oh as well as my shoe for solemnization. it's so purrrtyyyyy...really!

i smile even though i'm hurting

despite of everything that happened
despite of how much i say i hate you
despite of how much i want to be happy to see u suffer
in the end i still care..


Here i am, putting myself out there once again. Even though i know that in the end i will get hurt.

i have nothing to lose if u're out of my life

someone in class is trying to mess with me and i am just waiting for the right time to strike back. these ppl never see me angry coz if they do, they wont even have the guts to do what they did.

WATCH UR BACK BITCHES.

wedding blog announcement!

i have a new blog and it is all about my wedding preparations. i know some of you are more interested to read on that so i will just make ur life easier and u can read on the details over there. Here is the link

http://iamabridetobe.wordpress.com/



The layout is still bleargh and i'm still learning on how to use wordpress properly so at the moment my wedding blog looks like it's having a prison layout and i seriously hate it. i know i know..this blog's layout pun sgt outdated...but at least it doesn't have the monotone grey colour...

anyway..in TWO HOURS time, i'll be sitting for my LAST PAPER for my degree and soon i will start to menanam anggur in other words menganggur (yea..yea..it's lame..watever!) i can't wait to bore you with my summary of university life in my next post.. mind u four years is a LONG TIME...

Update on other stuff:

• pavement engineering final paper sucks. period. mistakeeee sik g toilet before test. irony gila with my previous post.
• my late uncle passed away the day before my final =( i know he is in a better place now and i know he suffered when my late aunt passed away last year (the day before my final as well!) al-fatihah
• i made such a loud entrance during policy development exam. (came 10 minutes late- have the wrong sit number-phone rang in the middle of the test (my ringing tone is avenge sevenfold so i got a lot of stares)
• i'll be leaving to brunei tomorrow for granny's birthday and also mother's day. I can't wait to meet everyone. Plus i'll be introducing the fiance officially to my family in brunei this time =)
• Wedding shopping starts this weekend when i'm in brunei =) so you can read on that in my other blog (yarabi rasa pemes aku ada 2 blog..pfft)