i'm feeling so lazy

i woke up at 6.30am in the morning and was planning to do my work after subuh prayer but i FAIL! Instead, i read blogs and watch tonnes of videos in youtube.

It's been 4 hours and this is what i have done so far;
blog:
kandee
proudduck
xiaxue

youtube:
lots and lots of photoshop video. you guys should totally check the video they did on an old lady! it made me wanna learn how to use photoshop (yes..i do not know how to use that software)
kandee
lauren conrad
the hills
.....

i''ll just take my shower and hopefully after that i'll have the drive to do work!

i look like shit!

I think i'm going crazy sooon!!!! OMG IT IS SO FRIGGING HARD TO FOCUS ON TWO DIFFERENT THING AT ONE TIME! I have to do the calculation for different load cases for my bridge project and FYP at the same time!!!!! Can someone just kill me now. plsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss


i can't wait for sunday. I wanna go to the beach and just chill and forget about my work. By then, hopefully everything is DONE! No more project, no more assignment and no more FYP for now.

Ya Allah
Tabahkanlah hati hamba mu ini..

off to menjadi pandai!
daaa

I'll be missing you

I broke into tears while listening to this


Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
Ill be missing you
Thinking of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
Ill be missing you


On that morning
When this life is over
I know
I'll see your face


Cant wait till that day, when I see your face again
I can't wait till that day, when I see your face again...

Nek&Aunt...i miss u ;(

i actually thought it's the weekend!

From the title it is obvious that i thought today is saturday instead of wednesday. There is so many things that has been happening in this few days and there's going to be so many more to come. In a way, i am very psyched about my deadlines coz it keeps me going but sometimes it can be a bit too much for me.

 Like yesterday, i almost cried in my IT lab after reading the comments given by my supervisor on my thesis. I was actually frustrated to myself for not doing a good job plus all the silly mistakes i did in my thesis. But then again, it's only my first draft and my title is NOT EASY! so of course i don't get it right the first time. After a while, i regain my composition and i take it as a chance to refine my work and make it better. Yes, i was totally embarrased for  thinking that we're using LIDAR data and not worldview2 data but hey, it's better to know now rather than during my FINAL PRESENTATION right??? whatever it is, i'll get it done soon.

Another set of list i need to do for this week;
budget analysis
bridge calculation on HA and HB loading(bridge project)
borehole data analysis (highway project)
ammend thesis chapter 1-3 (pronto!)

i guess that's it before my final. wish me luck peeps!

to infinity and beyond

FINISHING SCHOOL IS OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!! now i can graduate with flying colours

Now i really need to get my game going. So my goals for tonight are:

• finish up the last part of fyp
• start doing the traffic take home test
• omigodddd the budget essay
• preparation for syg's bday.

Yes all of that in one night. I am going to be SUPERWOMAN tonight. i'm already feeling a little heroic now. daaaaaaaa

off to menjadi pandai..

i'm single but not available

i wrote some really personal stuff before but i guess i should just keep it personal. No good will come out of it. i feel so alone. No family, no friends and no bf.

family: drama
friends: so frigging far ;(
bf:................


i wanna go to my cave and i wan no one to enter it.

A message to YOU

i am the kind of person who just keep things on my own. Yes i know i do talk A LOT but most of it is about every day crap. In a way, i can call myself a private person because i choose people who i would open up too and i only tell a portion of it to them. The rest i would either keep it to myself or tell my other half, who else if not sepul. I can never ever trust anyone else except him. I have faced all kind of betrayal and two face people(u know who u are). I was so mad at that time and i wish i could just run them over with my car til they die. Little that i know, i should be thankful to have this kind of people in my life because they have made me stronger and wayyyy better person than before. So when i'm in a big drama or dilemma. i can just nonchalantly be blunt about it. So here i am, being blunt to you.

You couldn't stand your own attitude for just two days. Imagine how i put up with you this whole time. Not only me, i bet everyone around u feels that way. You need a serious attitude adjustment.

YOU'VE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME!

In three hours, i'm going to sit for my second test for highway. It was supposed to be a close book test but thanx to my collegues, it became an open book paper. So here i am, blogging coz i know the paper is not going to be from the notes and we have to dig through our head during the paper later.

It's week thirteen and i feel like buying a ticket and just run to a remote island where people can't find me. It would be super nice if i can go to perhentian again or maybe this time to kk and enjoy the beach. *hint* but then, i wouldn't know what to wear..


Here are the list that i have to do for today:

submit 2 assignment for engineering and society - i'm done with one only!
Try out the bridge assignment using LUSAS bridge analysis
write 4 bloody paper on the 2011 budget!!
learn how to use ENVI4.7

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

on top of that, i'm going to receive a take home test for traffic analysis at the end of the day. i feel like screaminnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggggggggg and this weekeend, i have to attend finishing school! It's a two day course on brushing our skills to score some job interview when we get out from here. i know it's good and i have to thank my uni for that but why must it be on the day before the bf's bday!!!! !#@@!%$%$#@

okay enough of cursing...i hope u have better life than me..

Someone that is always close to my heart =)

Just when i thought that my world is crushing down, my day turn into a new leaf with just a phone call =) Ira called and i am super duper duper super super HAPPY! OMG I MISS HER SOOOOO MUCHHHHH..eventhough we're thousand miles apart, our bond is tight like sister! our friendship goes all the way back from primary school, primary 5 to be exact because we were sooo into westlife..haha..but when we were in primary 6, our friendship was a bit rough and i became super close with my "group makan di tiang bendera depan class 1 merah". (CJ, val, ruth, bigail, manda, sonia, carissa, kim)

 Then, highschool came and we became close again till i moved to another school. At first, i didn't want to go but after knowing that she's gonna leave for japan at the end of the year, i don't really see a point why i should stay at the school. Since then, we're still close and will update each other every few months through phone. After a few years in japan, she moved to NZ and yet we still update each other regardless on the distance.

Every 2-3 years, she'll come back to kuching for a few months but sad for her coz she'll always have to wait for me to return home from kl as my sem break is different from hers. When we're in kch, the one thing that we do best is EATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. We'll go out and EAT or cook at home and then EAT. Watch movies and EAT...go to our aunt's place and EAT some more.

OMG I MISS EATING DIM SUM AT SPRING and be super loud at the restaurant because we'll laugh just about anything.

i miss you best friend and i hope to see you around soon!

i wanted to make an ayu face for u but FAIL!



so i'll just settle with this pic



EVERYONE SHOULD READ THIS

Look around you, what are people chasing in this world?
Money? Power? Fame? Beauty?
Obviously this is all based on the physical pleasure

I was struck when watching the arrival's video. I really like it when the creator of this video says this:

You are created as a soul and placed into this physical body. Your body is just "the tool". A tool which should be guided into investing and feeding the soul. But what do we do? We dedicate all our lives to feed "the tool" with physical and worldly pleasures, instead.

Have you ever laughed so hard till your stomach hurts and in the end you just feel empty inside?
Have you been to a club and partied so hard but when you got home, you found yourself crying on the bathroom floor?
Do you really think liquor, drugs and smokes can really put your worries behind?

Death is very near to us and this world is just a temporary place for us to feed our soul for eternal life in the hereafter. MasyaAllah..

Don't give up even if u feel like jumping off a building

Alhamdulillah
it's 3am and i'm FINALLY done with the literature review

i'm tired -_-

i'm still gonna watch the last 20 mins of grey's anatomy. Work hard, play harder..hihi

FUCK MY LIFE

I'm 22 and in a few months i'm gonna be 23. i've given up a lot of things and the only thing i'm looking forward now is to be married to the fiance. i felt like my whole life is about making other people happy so now it's time for me to do something that makes me happy which is building a life with the fiance.

It's sad that i don't have a say in my own wedding. To avoid any confrontation, i have to keep my mouth shut and just follow what they have planned for me. i don't even think i can decide my own clothes. The fiance keep telling me that i can always pitch in ideas with the wedding (his side) and that is the only thing that keep me sane at the moment.

All i want is an islamic wedding but due to our stupid culture, i can't do it because that is not in the norms of our culture.

Think before naming your child!

I've been following this blog for quite some time and i'm grateful that the baby is healthy =) I followed all the post on the difficulty of giving birth to that baby and there was one point where i actually cried. It was very moving and i admire the mother for being so strong going through all that. After reading her blog, it made me want to name my daughter as Rania which means kesukaan dan kesenangan. Nowadays, people tend to give names to their child that sound cool and chic til they forget that it is very important for us muslims to give not only beautiful but the the most important thing is the meaning behind the name.

One of the very first duties you have toward your new child, besides physical care and love, is to give your child a meaningful Muslim name.

These are some of the forbidden names in Islam and the Prophet Muhammad pbuh ordered them to change during his lifetime.

•Names That Connote Idolatry
It is forbidden for Muslims to give their children names that have idolatrous meanings
Abdul-Shams ("Servant of the Sun") or Abdul-Nabi ("Servant of the Prophet").

•Names That Are Befitting of God Alone
It would be arrogant and idolatrous for a human being to be given one of Allah's Names
Malik Al-Mulk ("The King of Kings") or Al-Khaliq ("The Creator").

•Names of Tyrants 
It is disliked for Muslims to use the names of historical figures or famous people who were idolaters or tyrants, Pharoah or Abu Jahl.

•Names With Bad Meanings
Muslims should not give their children names with disliked meanings, such as Hazn ("Rugged") or Harb ("War").

 




MasyaAllah, my name is not in any of those category. I owe this to all of my family members =)


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