honeymoon~

where is the best place to go for honey moon?

Sometimes i like to break you but sometimes i wanna hold you endlessly

The title above refers to my final year project (FYP) and not the bf..


Alhamdullilah. I've just completed the first part. I'm over my dateline for 1 hour and 46 mins but i'm not gonna be so hard to myself since i'm done with it. Tomorrow i'm going to start doing the next part. I have a VERY tight dateline but insyaAllah i can do it!


Bila aku mok polah reaction paper and capstone tok oooo..susah eh mok focus rah banyak benda. sabar jak lah. this is a part of learning process. I need to learn MULTI tasking. On the bright side, i'm just a student so my work doesn't involve client or $$$$$ so whatever stress i'm dealing right now is nothing compare to engineer on site nak??? i think they would wanna swap places with me nak so i'm not gonna complain and be like waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa or give a look like  -__-  or x_x


Sabar k geng =)

-_-

i miss the bf already. He'll be leaving to Kota Bharu tonight but he'll be coming back tomorrow morning =). Next weekend he'll be leaving to kch! We were supposed to go together but the plan has changed due to a lot of reasons. Pfft!


FYP is killing me! I'm gonna bleed to death

random thoughts

• People have high expectation on me and that can be both flattering and overwhelming.
• I don't know what i'm gonna be in the next 5 years.
• I don't know how am i going to succeed both in career and marriage all at the same time.
• $$$ is always running low.
• Car is making a lot of weird noise everytime i deaccelerate at a high speed.
• FYP feels like a neverending work.
• Capstone design is trying to break my soul
• Be excited of the new environment

My mood swing is like a rollercoaster.

A river was found under the sea!

Assalamualaikum wbt

I have been missing lately and i'm deeply sorry for that. I am obviously not being a good gf since i don't post much and i even forgot to bring my hp yesterday when i went shopping. Pls forgive me dear.

A lot of things happened lately. I had a big fight with one of my longest and closest friend but it all ended well. It was a bit emotional on her side and i felt bad to put her through all of that. But we made ammends and everything is fine now. Alhamdullilah..

My roomate showed me this video yesterday and masyaAllah, i was stunned. i don't think i have to say much. why don't you just watch the video

Subhanallah...it's all in the Quran..

Why can't everyone be like pritti??

There's going to be a war between me and that someone but i'm not sure whether should i make the first move. At this point, i am fed up with that person for acting like a dick. seriously. can't wait for my bf to come and then i can ditch u. plus pritti will come over and i will ditch u again. and busy with fyp n ditch u again. i can be ur ditching partner but don't really know whether u'll realize that u put me through a lot of crap since u date that keling.

FRIENDS WHO DITCH THEIR FRENS FOR BF CAN GO TO HELL

GET OUT OF MY LIFE. I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE FOR NOW

sometimes people just don't understand on how much you want to be left alone

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Alhamdulillah..the test was ok2. Right after the test ended, everything became chaotic. Everyone is asking everything and i am one of them. The question was short and simple but it was difficult to choose the method. Well i chose mine and i believe in my answer. If it's wrong, then i'll learn from it. Even if i lose 12% from there but at least i won't make the mistake when i work later on, right?

Last night i attended one of the best lecture. I am grateful to be having the opportunity to meet up so many wonderful people. I have to thank them for shaping who i am today. This year has got to be one of the best years in my life in terms of exploring myself. I thought i knew myself up until now. I have changed the way i perceive on things.

Moving on...

i miss you and i can't wait for you to get back. I honestly don't feel like going out during the weekend whenever you're not here. It's just tiring you know with getting ready and most of the times, i just grab anything to go out. It's pointless to look good when you're not around.

I can't thank you enough for being understanding. I was actually scared that you would throw a tantrum on me when i said i want to think about my career first before you but you didn't. Thank you syg. No matter what and where my job is, we'll find a way to work it out k. My career is just about to take off and I really hope we can be happy no matter where we are.

I honestly still have doubts on your level of understanding but time will tell..

Lunch with Prof and Ir =)

Call me crazy but it's 4.20am and i'm still up. My insomnia has been going on for 12 days now. This is BAD! anyway..today i had lunch with the invited speaker, IR. manogaran and it was GOOD.

This is what i learn today:
1. Students nowadays are PAMPERED!
2. Opportunities are everywhere and it's really up to you on what you want to do with it.
3. Informations are at your finger tips now so go out and search for it.
4. Live to learn and success will come along the way. In other words, money will be knocking at your door. Not the other way round.

Last but not least...
Always push yourself to give the very best in everything you do.

olivia ong - sometimes when we touch

If i can sing without having blackout or hujan kilat afterwards, i would definitely sing this song to you.

i love you syg. i can't wait for november!

Alhamdulillah

It's been a few days since we have a descent conversation and i'm sooooo sorry syg. I've been super busy and stress lately. Thank you for being understanding and very supportive. If org lain mmg lamak "dah lama kne sepak"..in other words "sepak palak ko". It's amazing how positive and happy i can be after the massage. I sleep better now eventhough i still have trouble with sleeping but when i finally zzZZzzzz, i don't wake up every hour or my leg x da penyakit baby parkinson agik.

Alhamdullilah today has been great so far. I woke up late today (5 solid hours of sleep =)) and i went to class 45 mins late. ok that is not the great part! but this is, eventhough i'm late i still can catch up with the lecture and i was very attentive. It's amazing how much concentration i have in the class. I did not yawn or day dreaming AT ALL and that is AMAZING.

Tonight, i had a meeting with my collegues(policy class) and it went great. Everyone was so into it and i have to say that this has got to be one of the best discussions i had as a student here. There was a lot of laughter and the best thing is we achived the goals that we wanted to do. meaning to say bukan borak kosong.

you must be wondering why i byk cakap lepeh in this post. Well it's simply because i want to strip off the racism in myself. Let's start embracing the differences that we have around us. If you really think about it, that's what makes life interesting. If everyone acts the same way, eat the same thing, speak the same language then we would be like robots and that is going be bleargh don't you think?

So i suggest all of you to change your mindset and start embracing your surroundings. It will make your life less stressful! If all else fail, then go to a massage parlour so that you can get a happy pill just like me.

smiles everyone...

My sleeping lullaby

MasyaAllah...such a beautiful voice..

late night alumni - what's in a name

Having insomnia is not so bad afterall when you listen to this

Massage parlour review

I went to a massage parlour for the first time and the only thing i can say is....IT'S WORTH EVERY CENT! I went to the first floor at Alamanda near the parkson entrance.The place was descent looking, nothing like HAMMAM but still it's okay looking. I went there with the X______X  face and i was just about to collapse when i arrive on their door step. After changing into the sarong given (i had some difficulty in tying this) a 30smth woman starts working on my neck. The first thing she said was "wahhh keras nyeee", i guess she was trying to say tense in BM..hahah..then she said some other things but i don't have the energy to listen.

Then i start feeling uneasy coz she massaged my body using the towel without using any oil. So i asked the lady to put some oil on my body. Only THEN i realised that she was actually someone from China! She start  shingshongshingshong and the only thing i can understand is "ni jiang se mek?" (with a THICK china accent). So i just point to the bottles of oil on the table. Then she start saying something else and all i can do is forge a smile and say "se se"(yes although i have no idea what she's crapping about) and finally she drew a number on the bed meaning that i need to add some more if i wanna use oil so i just nodded coz i really don't care at that point. So she continued on massaging my back, hips, hand, thigh and etc....i felt like i'm in my dreamland. I kinda wished the session will never end. (80 minutes)

There was a lot of noise coming from the kids outside (don't bring your kids to the parlour!) but i just couldn't be bothered. Yes i did mumble some mean things on them but rhe lady knows where the right spot to ease my tension. All in all it was good and i can't wait for the next session.


I am eyeing for the deals online! The price is half than what i spend today and it's going to be for 2 bloody hours! i am not gonna miss that chance!


Thank you syg for supporting me no matter where you are!!!!

Update for syg

Hi baby love..

i was stressed last night and super tired since i have class since 9am-10.30pm. By the end of it, i'm pretty much worn out. Even the slightest thing can make me blow up. Maybe last night i was over acting over the lecturer incident, maybe i'm not. I don't know. But right now, i just want the positive energy flowing inside. So i'll just take it as an honour for the lecturer wanting to know on my opinion on the journal.

Last night, i had the sleep problem again. I couldn't sleep until 4am! I thought i'm gonna have a good night sleep since i had a long day but i guess the prob still doesn't go away. This is what stress can do to you i guess.

Something bright up my day today =) i woke up by the call from najwa and she came to give me my birthday present. She gave me something that she bought from aussie, egypt and singapore. i felt touch caused she remembers me whenever she goes somewhere. You know it's weird having this kind of friendship coz we don't hang out much in class coz we have different cliques but when we do, it'll be awesome and we can just sync in. Cool right..


Another good news is pritti is coming in march! it's going to be on 3rd-6th march. I super can't wait!!! i will work my ARSE OFF doing all my work before she arrived. I LOVE YOU PRITTI!!! i am gonna plan this trip and i want to make it memorable for all of us!!

Dear May

DEAR MAY,

PRITTI IS COMING OVER LIKE FOR REAL SO GET YOUR ASS HERE IN KL!


YOURS TRULY,
ME

wedding bells

SoOOoooo many people are getting married in this year including me=). So far there are FIVE weddings in my family. 2 in brunei and 3 in kch n the funny thing is all the couples in kuching are getting married in NOVEMBER! my cousinS's wedding are gonna be on 11.11.11. Me on the other hand is going to be *drum rollsss* will be confirmed when my official wedding card has been ordered. hahhahahahah

sabar aaa..

Wedding door gift

i attend a wedding today and the door gift are(more than 1 bebeh)  sooooooo adorable. As promised to the bf, here are the pics..

First door gift

This is what in the box

tadaaaa....gula batu

serious sik nyaman gula batu tok

cute nakkkkkkkkk??????? i want this for my wedding!

tgh mkn gula batu durian

Can't wait to start shopping for the wedding =)

i'm walking away

You know what i hate? i hate being used only when needed. I bet everyone felt like this at least once in their life time. If i ever did that to you, i would like to apologize.

i hate hate hate when i have to be THERE for someone but in the end that person will ditch you over and over again when the "dillema" is over.

what i learnt in the past is, life can be bitchy sometimes and people can be a pain in the arse so like it or not, we need to suck it up and just face it. It is definitely easier to say than been done. So the first step is

TO WALK AWAY.

Go find someone else to talk to coz i ain't gonna be there for you this time.

nightmares actually come true

i am actually scared that i might not be able to finish doing my fyp. i am so lost at the moment. How i wish i am one of the junior masterchef participants. ok this is random but i just finished watching the whole season and it was AWESOME!

once again i feel lost. what am i doing? how to do it? waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

update 101

royal highness just called and asked when i'm going back. It's weird that he's ok with me coming back for 4 days but he wonder why i'm so free at the moment staying at my cousin's place. Weird~

anyway, mummy is leaving to brunei maybe on 17th march so we're gonna have to book a week before or after that syg.

I can't wait to get married!
I'm so blur with my fyp!

Ya Allah, please help me!!!

Alhamdulillah...1 down, 3 more to go!

it's 3.30am and i am so bloody tired. I'm done with one of the goals that i made a few days ago. Although i'm tired, i'm so pumped up to go to the next goal.

Btw i am super amazed watching junior masterchef australia. It's amazing to see kids between the age of 8-12 YEARS OLD COOK. They cook\ gourmet food! I don't even know how to cook a single gourmet dish but they do.

off for now..

xoxo

everytime you go away, you take a piece of me with you~~

The bf just left =( omg this is sad. It supposed to be easier! but it's not. argh i hate this feeling. Over this past 2 weeks i've been seeing him almost daily. Maybe that's why it's harder to let him go. I miss him already =(

my heart breaks whenever i miss you

I wish i can talk to you at times like this =( But whatever it is, i will promise you that i will make both of you, mummy and daddy proud. Sometimes i wish i can pour my heart out to you. When daddy being pushy and mummy being...well mummy, i wish i can just go to miri and talk to you in the kitchen like the old times. omg..i'm crying while typing this out but i really miss you aunt. i really do. You did not say good bye when you left. i could not forgive myself until today for not remembering the last time i see you. Was it when i went to brunei with the whole family and i slept in your new house for the first time, or was it when you came to kch and we hugged so tightly at the tv area. OMG i miss you aunt! YOU ARE THE ONLY AUNT WHO I WOULD HUG LIKE THAT.

it's been almost a year since you're gone but i still cry whenever i miss you.

i miss you aunt. i wish you know how much i love you this whole time and thank you for letting me know such a wonderful person like you. You have shaped me to be more grounded and always enjoy and have fun in whatever i do. With this i would like to add another clip for you.

i'm overwhelmed with gratitude, my baby i'm so thankful i found you

-mariah carey-

Live your life with having one goal each day =)

i feel so pumped to do smth for my life. I guess i finally have the motivation to go on with life. I think i've been idle for so long and i'm kinda lost in my own world so from this moment on, i am going to have a goal every day and i'll try to work my way from there.

Tomorrow's goal:
1. No fighting with the bf
2. Get it over with the ROI..(i've forgotten about this actually)

sleeping over~

i'm so bored and i'm only here for 1 hour. OMG...i'm glad i have my laptop with me! btw i'm staying over at my cousin's place til the weekend. My dorm is empty and it's kinda creepy at night so i opt to stay over at her place for a change.

i hate hate hate the receptionist here. First of all she looked at me like a dirt! secondly she did not have the decency to apologize after sending me to the wrong floor and finally, when i went back to see her and asked her to send me the 23rd floor, she just rolled her eyes and asked her collegue to "entertain" me.

pls lah~~ u're just a RECEPTIONIST, u don't have to act like you earn 30 grand a month because obviously you don't or else you won't be working there and be my slave, RIGHT? pfft. stupid receptionist