Fed up

Seriously! Brapa kali ktk mk plh mek nangis camtok?! Kmk fed up dh dgn ktk plh kmk rs down camtok. Kmk sik suka ngamok2 camtok time kmk pregnant nektok. Mek x suka the thought of baby mek tauk mek sedih n merana. Ktk nyaman jak blh tdo berderok cnun. Even when ktk d rmh pun ktk blh jak tdo while i feel like crap apa tah gk when ktk d sinun.

Now only ktk blh contact kmk n kmk just perlu pasrah trimak call ktk wpun kmk tgh mrh coz kmk tkt mun mek x angkat kmk x tauk bla gk ktk akan call. When kmk down glak2 ktk xda. Ktk tinggal mek mantak2 gia. Pandei2 kmk lah mujuk ati kmk tok gne n when me dh ok ckit suddenly ktk coming mk 'pujuk' kmk. What's the point? U weren't there when i needed the most. I feel so depress and words cant describe betapa mek down when ktk plh mek sedih. It's almost suicidal. Nsb lah kmk pregnant n x plh benda yg bkn2 coz i dont want to hurt the baby.

Ktk selfish tauk sik. Allah jak tauk betapa sedih nya kmk rs kinektok. Kmk xda tmpt lain mk pour my feelings except blog tok. Kmk x rs mk ktk blt ari isnin tok. Mun ktk lamak gk sinun maybe sebab Allah tauk kmk perlu buk gk masa mk kuatkan dirik.

Kmk nyaman2 jak nak madah klak baby kita akan gang ktk lebih dr kmk coz kmk tek kuat ngerepak. Imagine jak apa perasaan kmk yg tgh mengandungkan baby tok. Siang malam tahan sakit blakang, thn nya kick perut mek the whole day, telan ubat besar2 everyday n rs fear mk beranak sik lamak gk.


Kadang2 kmk rs x berbaloi apa kmk plh k ktk. Kmk mintak permission ktk on even benda yg plg kecik tp in d end kmk x dpt coz ktk x mk. Mun org lain x da nya terpk mk tyk pun.

Everytime before ktk blt outstation, kmk akan make sure rmh kemas, baju suma lipat n laundry dah plh coz kmk mk spend time ngan ktk. N the last time u went away, ktk pdh iboh plh keja rmh...klak plh sama2 tp ckit pun rmh x terurus pasya. When ktk terpajsa plh keja rmh n kmk ddk dpn tv jak muka ktk mcm kmk ambik kesempatan. Tp pernah ka ktk terpk apa kmk plh before ktk blt?

Kmk seriously fed up ngan ktk nektok. This is too much. Ktk pdh ktk pun ada perasaan juak. Ktk pdh ego mek besar and kmk xda mk pdh sorry ka sekali skala.

Kmk xda rs mk pdh sorry coz kmk rs kmk berik effort byk ngan ktk eventho ktk xda pun plh effort k kmk n kmk x pernah pun complain psl ya.